AHRDO

I have lost six brothers

Note: Mr, Aref has been a teacher for many years and has lost thirteen members of his family during the wars and violence in Afghanistan, and he himself has the scars of violence in his body.

Narrator: Aziz Ahmad Aref (brother of the victim)

Victim: Sultan Ahmad Sohrab

Time of the incident: 1980

The place of the incident: Polygon of Pole Charkhi

I am 56 years old and we were 13 brothers and one sister. I am the ninth brother and Sultan Ahmad was six years older than me. Sultan Ahmad was born in 1953 in Kabul. He attended elementary school in Bamyan, Parwan and Kabul and joined Habibiah High School in 1967 and graduated from Habibiah High School in 1974. When he was in Habibiah High School, it was considered the brilliant era of intellectual struggles and political parties of different tendencies were formed. These parties were formed in two main ways, one of which was the new democratic tendency, which founded an organization called "Progressive Youth Organization" under the leadership of Akram Yari, and its members were Sadeq Yari, Engineer Osman, Dr. Hadi Mahmoudi, etc. Sultan Ahmad was also a member of this organization Sultan Ahmad joined the Faculty of Literature and Human Sciences in 1973 and graduated from the history and geography department in 1976. When Sultan was in university, Dawood Khan had banned political activities, and on the other hand, “Shoalah Javid, a political party” had split. At that time, he was a member of the revolutionary group of the peoples of Afghanistan, in 1978 with the cooperation of Akram Yari, they founded the Organization for the Liberation of the Peoples of Afghanistan (Sorkha), which published the first night magazine and a book called "The Growth of Bourgeoisie in Afghanistan" written by Akram Yari, which later almost all the members of this organization were arrested and executed in February 1978.

In June 1979, four left and national parties and organizations united under the name "Afghanistan National Fighters' Front" and on 05 August 1979, they revolted against the Khalq & Percham's regime. Sultan Ahmed was arrested because they did not recognize him, but he was soon released. In 1979, he founded the "Fight to Save Afghanistan" organization, in which he was in its leadership. The government of that time broke into this organization and in 1980, almost all the members of the organization's leadership were arrested and sent to prison, they were sentenced to death in the first step, later the death sentence was reduced to twenty years of imprisonment. I must say that one of the leadership members of this organization named Hakim Tawana surrendered to the then government. When he was released from prison, he had written books against the movement of intellectuals.

Sultan had been severely tortured in prison and had spent months in asolitary confinement, as a result of which his back and neck vertebrae were dislocated, and after spending 12 years in prison, he was released in 1988, when we were in Pakistan. I had also been released from prison and could not live in Kabul, and Sultan went to Peshawar after 25 days of freedom and was arrested by Golbudin Hekmatyar kidnappers on January 5, 1989, and we still have no information about him.

One of his friends writes in his memoirs: I met Ustad Sultan in Peshawar and jokingly told him that your security situation is not good and you should go to Europe. He said with a firm tone, "My friends are being executed one by one, how can I leave this country?" I will die any horrible death you want/ I will not accept this brutish life.

My brothers and I tried hard to find him. After a lot of research, we came to the conclusion that the Sultan was kidnapped by Hizb-e-Islami with the help of ISI, the Pakistani intelligence. Sultan had a passionate life, in addition to being my brother, he was like a leader, guide, and teacher for me, and he was a very close friend. We had a football team where we were almost all brothers. Sultan Ahmad was a master historian, poet and professional writer. He remained loyal to his ideals until the last drop of his blood. When he was in prison, I was also in prison and unfortunately the conditions were so tight that I could not meet him and I only managed to meet him twice. A brother of mine named Shakur was also imprisoned with me.

We were playing volleyball in the prison, so we decided that Shakur would not play volleyball and sit in the audience [so that he could meet the Sultan], and ten minutes later the intelligence/Khadists realized that the two people were not allowed to meet. They separate them with humiliation and punches and kicks.

Inside the prison, the prisoners were subjected to mental torture. For example, beating my brothers in front of my eyes, in addition to sleeplessness, pulling nails, beating with cable, were considered common daily tortures. The Sultan was in a solitary confinement for eight months, and the lock-up cell's room was 1.2 meters, this room was humid and never had the sun shine. In July 1979, four of our brothers were imprisoned, me, Shakur, Sharif, and Dawood, among four of us, they executed Dawood1, whose name is on the Exa list.

In Pakistan, Shakur, Sultan, Mahmood and Mirwais were kidnapped by Hizb-e-Islami, Shakur and Sultan were also imprisoned in Kabul, and Karim was martyred in the attack by the Russians in Noor Valley district.

I have many memories of Sultan. We played in the same team and he was my teacher, both during education and school and in relation to political issues. I have learned many things from Sultan, from eating bread to social etiquette. One day, Sultan and I were walking in Makrorian area and it was snowing heavily. A young girl slipped and fell to the ground. I laughed. Sultan advised me not to laugh because this girl needs help now and we should never offend anyone. And always in all cases we must think humanly.

At that time, Sultan was about 25 years old, but he adapted his approach to time and place. Sultan was always aware of all family members and took care of them. I learned from Sultan never to waste anyone's right and how to defend my right. Sultan taught me to know the rights of others and to defend our rights. These are a series of apparently small issues, but they are of great spiritual value. This issue that who is the main person responsible in this matter is very complicated, but who was to blame, this issue is as clear as day, which means that the people are objectively and mentally were not ready for the reform that the People's Democratic Party of Afghanistan had imposed. This party massacred its opponents without cause.

While in the first months we did not show any opposition and they called us their main enemy and put us in prison, tortured and killed us. It is possible that the opposition was limited to pen and paper, but they used ropes and guns against pen and paper and killed our people. So, naturally people revolted against them, which is still going on and every day we witness the killing of a large number of our compatriots.

I have spent my whole life in the struggle for justice. If anyone takes a step, even a small one, I will accompany them for the right to reach the rightful, and those who oppressed/persecuted the nation should be punished. While my hand is completely empty, I am not disappointed in the fight for justice.

Another Human Tragedy Must Not Happen Again Narrator: Nik Mohammad Sharif (brother) Victim: Mohammad Dawood (28 years old) Victim's occupation: Teacher at the Police Academy Date of arrest: August 5, 1979 Date of execution: September 1, 1979 Charge: Activity against the Afghanistan People's Democratic Republic regime and political and intellectual opposition against the regime Place and method of execution: Pul-e-Charkhi in Kabul, likely mass shooting and buried in mass graves on the site.

In May 1951, a child named Dawood was born in a home full of love for knowledge. In 1957, he started school at Bibi Mehro. From early childhood, he was serious-minded, honest, trustworthy, brave, intelligent, and committed to pursuing knowledge and education. Not only was he dedicated to his learning, but he was also a good teacher and mentor for his younger siblings. Dawood started his high school education at Ghazi High School in Kabul in 1963 and graduated in 1969. Those years were the peak of Afghanistan's intellectual awakening movement. He was conscious of injustices and considered silence in the face of injustice as a form of treason. To support himself and his family, he started different youth and adolescent sports teams, attracting many young people. He was so busy that he was rarely seen in public. His friends greatly cared for him, and he respected everyone. He was humble and debated those with opposing ideas with patience and an open mind. In 1970, Dawood entered the Police Academy. He was not happy with studying there. He had gone to take the entrance exam, only to accompany a friend who was keen to get into the Police Academy. Surprisingly, Dawood passed the exam while his friend unfortunately failed. Dawood had repeatedly assured his family he was not interested in attending the Police Academy. I remember when my father heard of Dawood's acceptance, he was so excited. A few days later, my father and I went to Kabul and discussed with Dawood his continuing his studies there. At that time, unfortunately, there had been an altercation between students at Kabul University, leading to the death of one, and causing the university's closure. So, when we learned of his disinterest in continuing at the Police Academy, especially my father was worried about his educational future. To please my father and other family members, Dawood agreed to join the Police Academy, and with his friend (who joined the following year), they graduated from the Academy in 1972. He then started working in the criminal section of a police district within Kabul. After less than a month, due to corruption in the district command, he disagreed with the head of the department and was transferred. In 1977, he was appointed deputy head of criminal investigations in Bamiyan province. Once again, Dawood witnessed corruption. His boss, the provincial security commander explicitly told him, "I did not come here to simply see the Bamiyan's Buddhas. So far, I have been lenient. But from now we must take our due", leading to an altercation between my brother and the Bamiyan Chief of Police. That same year, he was appointed as the chief of Police Security command for Yakawlang district in Bamiyan. Unfortunately, a local influential elder named Mr. Ra'ees recruited someone to murder an innocent farmer. A few days later, my brother detained Mr. Ra'ees for his role in the farmer's murder. As Mr. Ra'ees had close connections with higher officials in Kabul, Dawood received many calls from the President's office and the Interior Ministry demanding Mr. Ra’ee’s release. Emboldened by his close ties to senior officials, Mr. Ra'ees told my brother, "You cannot keep me for even 24 hours", and the next day, a telegram came from Kabul to my brother ordering: "Release Mr. Ra'ees and return to Kabul within 24 hours!". This led my brother and our family to return to Kabul.

For a while, he struggled against the communist regime as he opposed their repressions and injustices. These activities led to his arrest on August 5, 1979, by the intelligence agency AGSA (Da Afghanistan da Gato da Saatane Adara =Afghan Agency for Safeguarding National Interest) for his ideas and political activities against the regime. We remember that he was arrested near the Radio Afghanistan building and taken away. First, he was transferred to Sedarat (premier house) in Kabul, then taken to the presidential palace where he was severely tortured, as they tried to get him to identify close friends and anti-government activists, but he endured and gave no names. During that same moment, my two other brothers, Aref and Shokor, and I were also held as political prisoners. I have a bitter memory of our accidental encounter in the prison. I don't remember the exact date, likely around August 10 that year, approximately 6 or 7 days after our arrest as four brothers. I coincidentally saw him as I walked passed in front of his cell. Hurriedly but signaling me to come near his cell, as we weren't allowed visits or to see each other, and our cells were far apart. I reached his cell with great effort so no one would notice our meeting or discussion. When I reached him, signs of torture and bruising were evident on his face. Without wasting time, he said: "If you show resistance during torture, they will release you. Under no circumstances mention anyone's name, not even close friends. Provide no information about them". This was the last time I was able to speak to Dawood. After that, I was no longer allowed to see or speak with him, and any effort to meet him was pointless since we were closely monitored. We were in prison for about a month, our family knew nothing of our whereabouts or how we were treated. We were not allowed to inform or write letters to our family or receive visits from them. Sometime later, I was released from detention with Aref and Shokor. But we had no information about Dawood's fate, and no one ever told us anything. The whole family, but especially our parents, awaited his return. Our mother firmly believed that he was alive and that he would one day return home, until years later. On September 18, 2013, a list of 5,000 victims of the communist regime's atrocities was exposed and published by the Dutch government, with Dawood listed as victim number 4,102. I will never forget the day the Dutch government published that list. I was busy at the office that day when I suddenly read the news on the Hasht-e-Subh newspaper website. My mood dramatically changed, and I felt like I could see Dawood again. On the one hand, I was worried to see his name on the list, anxiously checking victim names and the year of their arrest, until I saw Dawood's name. Severe grief and bitterness gripped my throat. I was completely overwhelmed. It felt impossible to have these two feelings [simultaneously) hit me; one happy to finally know what had happened to him after 34 years, at least seeing his name on the list. On the other hand, I felt the old, unhealed wounds suddenly open upon me as I saw his name among the victims list of the communist regime's crimes. I was sure my other brothers had also learned of the list's existence and its release. The next day, we were all invited to a family wedding feast, we were sitting around one table but avoided looking at or talking to each other. Maybe outwardly, we were at a happy wedding but we were inwardly immersed in Dawood's tragic story and our family's past. Then, my eldest brother turned to the others and started speaking. He said it was good that we're together again, and said [He knows everyone] saw Dawood's name on the list. Instead of self-pity and silence, we should hold a memorial service in his memory and at least inform relatives and friends. We should let our mother learn that her waiting for Dawood's return was in vain. Perhaps his words were bitter and painful for all of us. But it led us to coordinate with other victims' families and, on December 10 in subsequent years, we go annually to Pul-e-Charkhi Prison, commemorating our victims' day so that history and future generations remember the past's atrocities and that this human tragedy must not happen again. We were never allowed to visit Dawood in prison after our release. He was executed by the intelligence agency AGSA in September 1979 in Pul-e-Charkhi, likely with other political prisoners, assassinated by bullets and buried in unmarked mass graves.

The death of my young brother broke my back

Abdul Qadir Jamshidi is a man with a gray beard, whose forehead wrinkles show more than ever when he talks. He is the first narrator of the incident and he narrates what he saw carefully and in detail. He uses his hands, face, and body a lot while speaking, making his speech beautiful and spectacular. Therefore, there is no blind spot in his speech and he can very easily tell what he has seen. His catchphrase is "Insha'Allah" which is used in cases where it is thought that the sentence is wrong, but it is not and the sentence has its own meaning if it is considered as a catchword.

Narrator: Abdul Qadir Jamshidi (brother)

Victim: Mohammad Hussain Jamshidi (18 years old)

Time of the incident: January 21, 2018

The place of the incident: Faizabad area, Haftwalaf village, Rabat Sangi, Herat

Type of incident: Roadside mine explosion

I am from Herat, Rabat Sangi district, Yaka Dokan village. My name is Abdul Qadir. I am 29 years old. I am busy with my life and in our region most people's occupation is agriculture. Like cultivating wheat and barley. My own job, I transport passengers , commuting, taking passengers and I do such things. I come from Herat to Rabat Sangi, which is my area/village, in the morning and return in the evening. This is my main job.

Martyr? We are six brothers, our younger brother is a martyr. I am not a big brother either, I am the fifth brother, the sixth is older than us, but the martyr was our younger brother, whose name is Hussain. To support life and find a morsel of bread, Hussain wanted to go Iran, but did not cross the border of Nimroz to Iran. Recently, a new way has been opened, from Islam Qala itself, which they say is on our side/Qarabagh, and from there people are taken to Iran with a cost of 5000-10000 Afn/person.

Four of our children, left the village together for Iran. They rode a white care(a white Sarachah) from Rabat Sangi. From our village, I brought them to Rabat Sangi by my own car/Sarache, and I found a care for them and myself returned home and 20 minutes after their departure we received the news of the martyrdom.

He took them on board, I said goodbye to them, they left; I returned home. Before I got home, I got a call. I did not get out of the car yet, from Saracheh - they said, the car of these children has been hit by a mine. I said where? They said in "Faizabad". There I did not call anyone else but my two brothers, we didn't call anyone because of the panic and fear we had.

We only meant that, God forbid, it's a landmine, if it has exploded, the car might be needed there, we should arrive sooner, God forbid, if one or two of them are wounded, they don't lose blood, and we can help them. We said it will be too late to call others in the village. We moved to Faizabad, from Faizabad to "Alaf", from Alaf down in the valley. There is a pass in the middle of Faizabad and Alaf. Passing the pass, we noticed the car, when reached it, there were ten people inside the Sarache car.

Among ten people in the care, there was a child, not more than ten years old. The child home was in Herat. He went to the border area ( which is a residential area) to see his relatives. Even that ten-year-old child was inside this car. One of these ten people survived. Others, nine others, I even collected the pieces of their body myself.

People were afraid that, God forbid, we could go around them, there would be mines, but we didn't know. I was thinking of getting there early to see how many of these are still alive. Someone needs help getting these to the car or to the clinic or to the city, hospital. [I was saying to myself and addressing the driver:] What are you crazy about? You don't have the right to go there, even the government people didn't bother themselves to go there.

They are much closer than us. Their distance [from the accident site] was ten minutes; It took us an hour to get there. They had arrived earlier than us. The gov. people fear was that, God forbid, there are mines around or the opponents, if we go closer, they may attack us. We, did not understand this, we reached the care; When we arrived, there was nothing from the car. The mine exploded in the middle of the car. There was nothing from the seat, the gate, not even the steering wheel. A bit of the car's pose and a bit of the trunk left from the Saracha/car. Others parts of car were torn to shreds, nothing was found in that car.

I looked around1, there were parts of body everywhere, I thought they cannot be collected like this, all the cars had a tarpaulin to sit on in the Sarache stall. I took it and collected these bones one by one and brought them together. Whenever a mine exploded, parts of body were thrown about one hundred to two hundred meters away. I found bodies from the waist above while from the waist down dose not existed. Even one of our son-in-laws, Morteza’s father, Khair Mohammad, may God have mercy on him, half of his face and his head exist (half of the forehead, from the between of the eyebrow, the right side of head),

I didn't recognize him until I turned him around. When I turned his face away, I saw his head and brain... that this Muslim is Khair Muhammad, may God forgive him. All these nine people who had died, I collected all of them one by one. There was no car, but a flying couch= minivan. I lifted the chairs and brought them to Rabat Sanghi clinic. I said that their relatives should not go the incident site. The situation is never safe, lest there be another misfortune.

I said, since we already came in the site, let's take all of these to the clinic. It is both the base of the government and under the control of the government. Their relative, would take corps from the clinic. That's what we took them and came to Rabat Sangi again, two to three thousand people gathered near the corpse of our people. It was very terrible. My prayer is that, God! No one should die young, it's hard.

Oh, not to forget, there has been a second car, following the care exploded. There were all women and children in the second car. There has been a distance between the first and second one. When the first car hit by mine, the second car stopes and calls the relatives about the incident. A person by the name of Ghulam Nabi called me, so I went to the incident site.

Twenty minutes by car, two hours on foot. Faizabad is in the hands of the government. The same area where the incident happened is mostly in the hands of the government, Taliban traffic is very low. Be informed, they said that the TAPI project will be passed from there, and at that time it was said that the government was also looking to have that area in its hands, and on the other hand, Taleb was also thinking that it had that area in its hands. Let the TAPI project not be launched, God willing, the Talib who is in that area will be guided by Iran, who will lead them, and even Iran support them financially.

For this reason, they start a war, a fight, and mines there, so that TAPI project doesn’t start. These young people were killed by these Muslims. The government says we don't know, the Taliban also says we don't know, no one has given us an answer yet. We wandered and did not understand. We have no more prayers, God, we have entrusted everything to you. We have no strength and no force anymore. Neither Taliban nor the government took responsibility at the end.

I think 100% that if they were government staff, Talib was claiming that we did this to get himself to the media, and take reward for it; Because they were not government men, and they were innocents, did not take the responsibility. Four of these corpses were ours, which I took to Yaka Dokan with my car among my people. There were nine corpses, five others were from Herat city, from the "Babahaji" neighborhood,

It has had a lot of effects on our family, for example, we have a father who was paralyzed due to grief. Two years have passed from the incident, my father can’t survive without medicine and without a doctor, there is no other way. Our mother is also crazy and nervous, even this morning the same dress I brought is coat, a full-blooded coat, that Mullah did not allow us to be buried with the body itself. A piece of his clothe remained clean as it was stained with dirt but there was no blood, my mother took it and hit it on her face and head for an hour, her nerves were broken, we haven't seen a good day in our house since the day he left.

There were six of us, now there are five of us. After that incident, people's uneasiness has led us to judge whether we have become addicted to drugs or what other calamity has befallen us. The young men who used to be stout, now they have gained strength, they don't even weigh 10 kilos. Believe me, dying young is very difficult, may God not show this calamity to anyone, otherwise those who have young people died will suffer the most. ground from the fourth heaven, and our strength is over, and the only thing I can say is that, God, I am satisfied with your satisfaction

My brother had very good manners, he always treated his elder with respect, if you advise him for hours, he would listen all with full attention. Believe me, I had scolded my brother many times, but he always just laughed in response and said nothing to me out of respect. When we review his memories and history now, I say to myself that he was not meant to stay.

I am sure that the example of this young man is no longer in our village. The four people who were martyred were all from the same village and all of them were of the same age and only among these four people Khair Mohammad was married and the others were single. Khair Mohammad had three daughters. Two daughters, one son. When he passed away, his wife was pregnant. It's been eight months since he was born, but he hasn't seen his father's face, and his eldest son is in charge, and until now, our family is taking care of them. . My message is that until we fraternize with each other, the stranger will not. A foreign country never wants us to live together as brothers. My point is that until we unite in the name of Afghanistan, the war of fratricide and dying young will not end. My prayer is that God, if my prayer is accepted, then no one will see the death of his/her young family members, our youth are our future.

For Hossein himself, I have this message that no matter how sad we are, we love you and remember you as long as we are alive. You were a good brother and good son to your parents.

Let's never go back to our past

Narrator: Abdul Raziq Rezaei

Victims: Abdullah and Abdul Karim

Time of the incident: 2001

The place of the incident: Dahan kanak village, Yakawlang district, Bamyan province

The name of the victims: Abdullah my father, aged 45-47, I don't remember the exact age of my father and my uncle Abdul Karim, he was 30-35 years old. They lived in Dahan kanak village, Yakawlang district. They were farmers.

My father was learned something from mullahs at home, he could only read the Quran. Abul Kakrim had attended "Dehsur" high school until the eighth grade. Due to these riots, these wars, he had left school. Both of them were married. My father had three sons, whose eldest son is me, his second son is named Samad, and his third son is named Nader. My father had three daughters, whose eldest daughter is named Hanifa, his second daughter is Sima, and his third is Soghara. My uncle Kakaim had four sons and daughters, His eldest son is Reza, his second son is Enayat, his eldest daughter is Laiqa, and his second daughter is Sabra. All were peasants/farmers and all lived in Dehne kanak.

It was 2001, that the Taliban came and took Yakavalang, the war ended... Khalili's forces went to Chaman. There they burned the villages and captured my father and another person named Ibrahim, and took them to the battle in Chahar Deh. Taliban was defeated there and came to Dahan kanak again, brought my father and uncle back to the village, tight them back to back under the road and fired on both/killed them.

When Taliban arrested my father, we fled to Punjab having no knews about my father. People told me that your father was killed, although it was dangerous to come to the area, we, however came and took the corpse of three martyrs with a small number of friends. We could not bury them in our ancestral cemetery, we took him to Sare kanak( a nearby village) graveyard.

during the migration period, all the people were vigilant to what is happening in Yakawlang, the houses and shops were burnt down, many people were killed.

My father's body remained under the sun shine [where he was killed] for a week, no one could come and bury him. When Taliban attacked Yakawlang, my father, told me( I am his elder son) take the family members to Panjab district, I would come after you, he stayed because of our livestock up there in Qeshlaq(pasture land, where people take their cattle/livestock ). We could only save our lives, not the live stocks. Unfortunately we have lost our father and every other thing we had in the village.

According to my cousin, four days after we( family ) left our village, my father was killed. As said, me, my younger brother Samad and my cousin Mohammd Rahim came from Punjab to Sarma Qol during the night. At night, we took five more people from Sarma Qol, we came and transferred the bodies at night in Sare kanak. The people of Sarkanak cooperated with – Thanks them, may God protect them – with them, we buried the corps.

We brought the family back when the Taliban attacked the American twin towers, it was September 11th, it was the beginning of the cold season. It had snowed once or twice. We came back home, but nothing remained, our houses were burnt, with empty hands, we started to rebuilt our houses.

Everyone had psychological problem. We had no one, it's very difficult to talk about it. We can't tell you how it went. It was very difficult for the people to live. I had lost a father and an uncle and our economic situation was ruined, our cattle and property were gone. We didn't have money and our situation was very bad, I personally took care of two families with many problems – I had to leave school - it is my responsibility to take care of the two families until today.

Today, my uncle family is living separately, we divided our land, after my uncle, I separated his land, by the grace of God, our agriculture product is good, not bad, but I ended up having a lot of trouble because at that time, people did not trust anyone. Now it has been changed, if neede people give us a loan, at that time no one gave a single rupee to anyone else. Why could not borrow some money? People used to say that the situation in Afghanistan is bad, I may not be able to pay back.

We had this difficult situation. I couldn't bear not to say it, it means that it is very difficult for someone to say it; Yes, those who had a better economy may have lived better, but I myself, who had two families on my shoulders and was empty-handed, someone who didn't have a single rupee, this is how I lived my life.

The little money that we had was in my father's pocket, which were burnt, they had holes drilled in it. It was completely destroyed. in general, it was out of use. My mother endured this situation until today, and today, thanks to the grace of God, our situation is good, and we suffered a lot that day. No one could take care of his family, but I supervised two families...

I was a child who did not understand anything about what to do. I went through that difficult situation alone. We struggled with a difficult life that no one can imagine, but some people are good, maybe they can. [Before this incident] I had no responsibility, but once two families were shouldered by one person without a single rupee in his pocket, imagine for yourself what the situation was like. You asked me, and told you, I could not control myself not to say, I beg your pardon.

Where did I find out about your uncle? When my father was martyred, I didn't know about my uncle, people didn't tell me anything. I buried my father, we couldn't be bothered there again, so we went to Panjab and again, my friends told me that you should come once, I had a bad feeling, because my uncle family was here in Panjab. As soon as he sent the message that "come once" I fell from the sky to the ground, I said what happened that he asked me again.

I came to Yekavlang again, I went to "Sar Maqol" village, the only place I could go. People had fled to Sar Maqol. I went there again, I asked my friends about the situation, and they said that the situation is good [but] let's go together with you, they say that your uncle has been captured. Well, we came, we gathered our friends and decided to find some elderly men and meet the Taliban who captured my uncle. When we came here, one of the friends said that the Taliban had captured your uncle, they took him to your village, they killed your uncle on a pass named “Larasi go and take your martyr from there. The people of Sangardost(one of the local Taliban) gave us a soldier to guide us there, showed us that my uncle corpse had dried up, we took it to Dahan kanak and buried him there. Ah, I wish they would had killed him [only], they have cut off his hand, cut off from here (showing his elbow), and cut off his leg from the knee. We took him and buried him in our village.

By God, at that time, we had no idea what we were doing because we were children, we had no idea what the Taliban meant, what they were doing, we had no idea, they just said that the Taliban had come and killed people. this much. Because we were children, we didn't feel, we didn't understand what the Taliban means? We thought that Talib means "student" not more than that, right? But when they came and set fire to the houses, killed the people, we thought that a human had not come, a savage had come, what were you doing to the innocent people, with the houses, No one has anything to do with the housed, but they destroyed and burned every single houses.

Yes, my mother is alive. Thanks God, my mother, it was my mother who brought us to this stage, otherwise we would have been a bunch of small kids & children. My uncle’s children were also small. My mother gave me an arm and said don't lose yourself, be strong, work hard. My mother supported us and kept telling us, be strong. The reality is that we worked hard, suffered a lot, and Thanks God we are seeing the results today.

I put myself in the place of my father, I left school, I sacrificed my wish and wants for my brothers and my uncles children. I supported my brothers and my uncles’ children to go to school. Thanks God, they are now doing well with their education and lives.

My father, was a normal calm person, he never fought anybody in the village or with family members. He had a sound personality as he never shouted on me ( as I remember) as his younger son, never used bad word against me, but he was a religious person. He used to awake us up to pray our prayers early in the morning and advised us to take fast.

I had no responsibility, didn’t think about life’s ups and downs, everything was on his shoulders, I didn't know where he would earn the livelihood and what he would give us, we would eat and wear only etc. My uncle was young, at that time our lands were not divided, only his house was separated, and he worked as a farmer with my father. Local Taliban were good people, some were Hazaras and Tajiks, but those who came out of Yakawlang, those Talibs do not want Islam at all, they were Wahhabis. These were outsider’s men.

Nothing noticeable left from my father to put them in the "Afghanistan Memory and Dialogue Center". My father had a Qoran and a watch. I have his watch with me now in my pocket and tape recorder named 530, and old model 60/70 years old.

These are the only things left from my father. Nothing left from my uncle but a picture. The photo is a very old one, we enlarged it and put it on the wall, so he should not be forgotten and remain as part of our memory. In reality, we have very bad memories, we never return to our past, we had hard time in the pasts that I cried, we really have a very bitter past, not only for me, but for all the victims, for all the people of Yakavalang, Bamyan and the central regions. We will never return to our past.

We are really happy to have something lasting for us in the museum. I'm happy and, you are welcome, you are all the light of our eyes who think about us and remember us and listen to our words/voices and take them to higher levels. Thank you.

Was a de-miner

Narrator: Ahmad (nephew)

Victim: Nabi

Time of the incident: 2011

Place of the incident: Kohsan district, Herat province

My name is Ahmed. I am twenty years old. I live in Kamaneh, Kohsan district, called Kohsan district. I myself work at custom at the port of Islam Qala. I would get 100-200 per day.

He was my uncle (victim), he was 31 years old. He was martyred in 2014. He was a de-miner, He left at four o'clock in the morning and came back at two o'clock in the afternoon. Last time, it was four o'clock in the morning when he left house. While going to the demining site, he and his colleagues were ambushed by the Taliban. It was seven o'clock, they fired on them, he and his 5 colleagues were killed there. They took others alive. They might be killed later.

He was an employee of De-mining agency. They were going to explore the land. They would find mines and mark them, they would report to the Engineer about the spots where mine exist, then the team was going to the site and explode the mine.

We got the news at eight and nine o'clock and went there. The drivers said that there was a war over the mine cleaners. We saw five or six people lying there. Mr. Behrouz's brother was also with them. He had been shot in his stomach, right here, God forgive him.

We put the body in the back of the car, brought it back to the house. I went there, two of our uncles also came. They live in Kamanah, their families live there [in Kamanah]. My uncle’s economic condition is good, but not that good. He has two children, one is five years and the other one is two years old.

The demining agency had given food and non-food commodities to my uncle’s family. They don’t have other thing. His wife is young( about 20 years old) and has two children. She lives with her two children. One of his children is five years old and one is two years old. My uncle was illiterate. He did not go to school.

We went to the field ourselves and picked him. Several others had been killed there. The corps were in different places. On in the car, one next to the car etc. among them, my uncle was shot dead and many didn’t even hurt. We went there and took him from the back of the car. We thought he was alive. God forgive him. He was martyred. We put him in the back of our car and brought him to his house, that's it.

It was also the holy month of Ramadan. Taliban have been after the director of demining agency, they took him away. Taliban asked him to pay, but he didn't give them any money, then five or six people were killed like this. These were earning a living through this job, he used to get 15,000 per month.

There is nothing else to say, I don’t have any message... Look, our business is ruined, there is no work in Afghanistan, nothing, I say that someone should help us with something.

I will do whatever I can for my uncle. My uncle served us a lot. I will do anything to him, to his children, to his family. My uncle was very kind to us. He used to advise us to do good thing, respect the elders and children and get education. I was saying that uncle I can’t go to school, I have to work because my father was killed in the way to Iran.

My father used to go to Iran to work . He was killed on the way to Iran. I was small, I don't remember [how he was killed], our family knows about it. They say he was killed inside Iran. Iranian soldiers killed him. He had gone illegally and had nothing, no travel document.

Now, thank God, it's fine. We work, my mother is with us, yes, we are two brothers, I am her elder son and I have a younger brother. My mother was 20-22 years old when my father was killed. Yes, she has never married again. She stayed with us. We go to work and my mother is at home taking care of things at home. Thank God, the rest is fine with us. I have this intention that God will help me to serve her in my life.

Even if a hundred years pass, you will not be forgotten

Narrator: Ali Shaheer

Victims: Haji Abdul Ali, son of Paiwand Ali (father), Haji Rajab Ali, son of Piwand Ali (elder uncle), Qurban Ali, son of Piwand Ali (younger uncle), Sultan Hussain (son of father's uncle) Mohammad Hasan (grandson of father's uncle)

Time of the incident: 1979

The place of the accident: Pole Charkhi Polygon, Kabul

I was a primary school student at that time. It was the night of Eid al-Adha; During the reign of Hafizullah Amin. I was not able to sleep that night because of the joy of Eid and wearing new clothes. Few families had TV at that time. We did not have a TV at home. But my uncle (who was living with his family with us in same house) whose young son owned a housewares store, brought a black and white TV for Eid nights. Their house was separated from our house by a partition. On Eid night, we went to my uncle's room to watch TV. That night, on the occasion of Eid, a movie called "Nawi da yaw Oshpe" (Bride for One Night), in Pashto language, was broadcast on TV.

My father, although he was not interested in watching TV or watching movies, but at the insistence of my uncle and my uncle’s son, he sat next to us and we watched the movie together. My father knew Pashto and understood the story of the movie well. He was impressed by the scenes of kindness and chivalry in the movie and watched the movie till the end. That night, my siblings and I were eagerly waiting for the movie to end and for my father to henna our hands. After the movie, my father hennaed our hands respectively.

It was late at night and my father was about to sleep when our house door was knocked. At the same time as the door was knocked, someone shouted loudly, "Who is Haji Abdul Ali?" "Come out of your room and open the gate." Some armed people were also surrounding the gate. The voice shouted two or three times and wanted my father. Annoyed by their screams in the middle of the night, my father told them, “Keep your voices down. What's going on in the middle of the night, so much screaming? You know that everyone is sleeping. I am Abdul Ali. Now I will open the gate. What do you want me to do?

When they entered the house, they said: "Haji, what weapon do you have at home?" My father said: “ tow hunting guns, a big and small one." Both are hanging on the wall of the house." The officers took the guns and said: "Haji, we will take you to the police station and then we will return you early morning." They took my father that night and we waited for him to return until morning, but he did not return that night.

On the day of Eid, all the family members, relatives and friends gathered together to celebrate Eid and were waiting for my father's return. It was time for the lunch when the armed men came to our house again. They did not bring my father. We were very worried. This time, they took 6 other members of my family with them: Qurban Ali (my uncle), Sultan Hussain son of my father's uncle, Mohammad Hasan the grandson of my father's uncle, Mohammad Nabi son of my uncle, Ghulam Abbas and Ali Ahmad, grandsons of my uncle.

Fear and worry filled the atmosphere of the house. In the evening of the same day, Haji Rajab Ali, my elder uncle, who was older than my father, came to our house and comforted us and said: "Don't worry, by God's hope, they will all come back." Don't worry as long as I am there." He said to my mother: "I will come tomorrow first thing in the morning, I will bring whatever food and other basic necessities you lack at home." As if he had sensed that my father would not return soon. But the next day, my elder uncle did not come. He was also taken from his house in Chindawol that night.

The night and days of Eid passed and we waited for my father and uncles to return. During the time of Babrak Carmel, Muhammad Nabi, Ali Ahmad and Ghulam Abbas were released in general amnesty. But the others never came back. My brothers and sisters and my uncle's children and I were nine in total, all small children with a year apart in age. We used to ask our mothers every day why my father and uncles didn't come. In the same way, my elder uncle had four children, a boy and a girl, the same age as us. My youngest uncle, who was taken away, still had no children.

Our mothers waited that night and bitter days and even long years for their husbands and shed tears and prayed for their return until they were old and their hair turned white. This wait lasted 35 years. When the Polygon victim list was released, we found the names of five of our family members on it. The wait is over and our hope collapsed; All the family members were just crying.

One day, we went with a number of friends and one of uncle's sons to the hill of Polygon’s victim in Pule cherkhi. When I was walking on the soil of Polygon, I was busy with the question of what my father and uncles said to each other in those heavy moments before death and what were their last words to each other?

After we knew that what has happened to my father and uncles, we honored them, their memories and other victims by organizing a program with a title written in bold: "Even if a hundred years pass, you will not be forgotten."

Even if a hundred years pass, you will not be forgotten

Narrator: Ali Shaheer

Victims: Haji Abdul Ali, son of Paiwand Ali (father), Haji Rajab Ali, son of Piwand Ali (elder uncle), Qurban Ali, son of Piwand Ali (younger uncle), Sultan Hussain (son of father's uncle) Mohammad Hasan (grandson of father's uncle)

Time of the incident: 1979

The place of the accident: Pole Charkhi Polygon, Kabul

I was a primary school student at that time. It was the night of Eid al-Adha; During the reign of Hafizullah Amin. I was not able to sleep that night because of the joy of Eid and wearing new clothes. Few families had TV at that time. We did not have a TV at home. But my uncle (who was living with his family with us in same house) whose young son owned a housewares store, brought a black and white TV for Eid nights. Their house was separated from our house by a partition. On Eid night, we went to my uncle's room to watch TV. That night, on the occasion of Eid, a movie called "Nawi da yaw Oshpe" (Bride for One Night), in Pashto language, was broadcast on TV.

My father, although he was not interested in watching TV or watching movies, but at the insistence of my uncle and my uncle’s son, he sat next to us and we watched the movie together. My father knew Pashto and understood the story of the movie well. He was impressed by the scenes of kindness and chivalry in the movie and watched the movie till the end. That night, my siblings and I were eagerly waiting for the movie to end and for my father to henna our hands. After the movie, my father hennaed our hands respectively.

It was late at night and my father was about to sleep when our house door was knocked. At the same time as the door was knocked, someone shouted loudly, "Who is Haji Abdul Ali?" "Come out of your room and open the gate." Some armed people were also surrounding the gate. The voice shouted two or three times and wanted my father. Annoyed by their screams in the middle of the night, my father told them, “Keep your voices down. What's going on in the middle of the night, so much screaming? You know that everyone is sleeping. I am Abdul Ali. Now I will open the gate. What do you want me to do?

When they entered the house, they said: "Haji, what weapon do you have at home?" My father said: “ tow hunting guns, a big and small one." Both are hanging on the wall of the house." The officers took the guns and said: "Haji, we will take you to the police station and then we will return you early morning." They took my father that night and we waited for him to return until morning, but he did not return that night.

On the day of Eid, all the family members, relatives and friends gathered together to celebrate Eid and were waiting for my father's return. It was time for the lunch when the armed men came to our house again. They did not bring my father. We were very worried. This time, they took 6 other members of my family with them: Qurban Ali (my uncle), Sultan Hussain son of my father's uncle, Mohammad Hasan the grandson of my father's uncle, Mohammad Nabi son of my uncle, Ghulam Abbas and Ali Ahmad, grandsons of my uncle.

Fear and worry filled the atmosphere of the house. In the evening of the same day, Haji Rajab Ali, my elder uncle, who was older than my father, came to our house and comforted us and said: "Don't worry, by God's hope, they will all come back." Don't worry as long as I am there." He said to my mother: "I will come tomorrow first thing in the morning, I will bring whatever food and other basic necessities you lack at home." As if he had sensed that my father would not return soon. But the next day, my elder uncle did not come. He was also taken from his house in Chindawol that night.

The night and days of Eid passed and we waited for my father and uncles to return. During the time of Babrak Carmel, Muhammad Nabi, Ali Ahmad and Ghulam Abbas were released in general amnesty. But the others never came back. My brothers and sisters and my uncle's children and I were nine in total, all small children with a year apart in age. We used to ask our mothers every day why my father and uncles didn't come. In the same way, my elder uncle had four children, a boy and a girl, the same age as us. My youngest uncle, who was taken away, still had no children.

Our mothers waited that night and bitter days and even long years for their husbands and shed tears and prayed for their return until they were old and their hair turned white. This wait lasted 35 years. When the Polygon victim list was released, we found the names of five of our family members on it. The wait is over and our hope collapsed; All the family members were just crying.

One day, we went with a number of friends and one of uncle's sons to the hill of Polygon’s victim in Pule cherkhi. When I was walking on the soil of Polygon, I was busy with the question of what my father and uncles said to each other in those heavy moments before death and what were their last words to each other?

After we knew that what has happened to my father and uncles, we honored them, their memories and other victims by organizing a program with a title written in bold: "Even if a hundred years pass, you will not be forgotten."

Even if a hundred years pass, you will not be forgotten

Narrator: Ali Shaheer

Victims: Haji Abdul Ali, son of Paiwand Ali (father), Haji Rajab Ali, son of Piwand Ali (elder uncle), Qurban Ali, son of Piwand Ali (younger uncle), Sultan Hussain (son of father's uncle) Mohammad Hasan (grandson of father's uncle)

Time of the incident: 1979

The place of the accident: Pole Charkhi Polygon, Kabul

I was a primary school student at that time. It was the night of Eid al-Adha; During the reign of Hafizullah Amin. I was not able to sleep that night because of the joy of Eid and wearing new clothes. Few families had TV at that time. We did not have a TV at home. But my uncle (who was living with his family with us in same house) whose young son owned a housewares store, brought a black and white TV for Eid nights. Their house was separated from our house by a partition. On Eid night, we went to my uncle's room to watch TV. That night, on the occasion of Eid, a movie called "Nawi da yaw Oshpe" (Bride for One Night), in Pashto language, was broadcast on TV.

My father, although he was not interested in watching TV or watching movies, but at the insistence of my uncle and my uncle’s son, he sat next to us and we watched the movie together. My father knew Pashto and understood the story of the movie well. He was impressed by the scenes of kindness and chivalry in the movie and watched the movie till the end. That night, my siblings and I were eagerly waiting for the movie to end and for my father to henna our hands. After the movie, my father hennaed our hands respectively.

It was late at night and my father was about to sleep when our house door was knocked. At the same time as the door was knocked, someone shouted loudly, "Who is Haji Abdul Ali?" "Come out of your room and open the gate." Some armed people were also surrounding the gate. The voice shouted two or three times and wanted my father. Annoyed by their screams in the middle of the night, my father told them, “Keep your voices down. What's going on in the middle of the night, so much screaming? You know that everyone is sleeping. I am Abdul Ali. Now I will open the gate. What do you want me to do?

When they entered the house, they said: "Haji, what weapon do you have at home?" My father said: “ tow hunting guns, a big and small one." Both are hanging on the wall of the house." The officers took the guns and said: "Haji, we will take you to the police station and then we will return you early morning." They took my father that night and we waited for him to return until morning, but he did not return that night.

On the day of Eid, all the family members, relatives and friends gathered together to celebrate Eid and were waiting for my father's return. It was time for the lunch when the armed men came to our house again. They did not bring my father. We were very worried. This time, they took 6 other members of my family with them: Qurban Ali (my uncle), Sultan Hussain son of my father's uncle, Mohammad Hasan the grandson of my father's uncle, Mohammad Nabi son of my uncle, Ghulam Abbas and Ali Ahmad, grandsons of my uncle.

Fear and worry filled the atmosphere of the house. In the evening of the same day, Haji Rajab Ali, my elder uncle, who was older than my father, came to our house and comforted us and said: "Don't worry, by God's hope, they will all come back." Don't worry as long as I am there." He said to my mother: "I will come tomorrow first thing in the morning, I will bring whatever food and other basic necessities you lack at home." As if he had sensed that my father would not return soon. But the next day, my elder uncle did not come. He was also taken from his house in Chindawol that night.

The night and days of Eid passed and we waited for my father and uncles to return. During the time of Babrak Carmel, Muhammad Nabi, Ali Ahmad and Ghulam Abbas were released in general amnesty. But the others never came back. My brothers and sisters and my uncle's children and I were nine in total, all small children with a year apart in age. We used to ask our mothers every day why my father and uncles didn't come. In the same way, my elder uncle had four children, a boy and a girl, the same age as us. My youngest uncle, who was taken away, still had no children.

Our mothers waited that night and bitter days and even long years for their husbands and shed tears and prayed for their return until they were old and their hair turned white. This wait lasted 35 years. When the Polygon victim list was released, we found the names of five of our family members on it. The wait is over and our hope collapsed; All the family members were just crying.

One day, we went with a number of friends and one of uncle's sons to the hill of Polygon’s victim in Pule cherkhi. When I was walking on the soil of Polygon, I was busy with the question of what my father and uncles said to each other in those heavy moments before death and what were their last words to each other?

After we knew that what has happened to my father and uncles, we honored them, their memories and other victims by organizing a program with a title written in bold: "Even if a hundred years pass, you will not be forgotten."

Even if a hundred years pass, you will not be forgotten

Narrator: Ali Shaheer

Victims: Haji Abdul Ali, son of Paiwand Ali (father), Haji Rajab Ali, son of Piwand Ali (elder uncle), Qurban Ali, son of Piwand Ali (younger uncle), Sultan Hussain (son of father's uncle) Mohammad Hasan (grandson of father's uncle)

Time of the incident: 1979

The place of the accident: Pole Charkhi Polygon, Kabul

I was a primary school student at that time. It was the night of Eid al-Adha; During the reign of Hafizullah Amin. I was not able to sleep that night because of the joy of Eid and wearing new clothes. Few families had TV at that time. We did not have a TV at home. But my uncle (who was living with his family with us in same house) whose young son owned a housewares store, brought a black and white TV for Eid nights. Their house was separated from our house by a partition. On Eid night, we went to my uncle's room to watch TV. That night, on the occasion of Eid, a movie called "Nawi da yaw Oshpe" (Bride for One Night), in Pashto language, was broadcast on TV.

My father, although he was not interested in watching TV or watching movies, but at the insistence of my uncle and my uncle’s son, he sat next to us and we watched the movie together. My father knew Pashto and understood the story of the movie well. He was impressed by the scenes of kindness and chivalry in the movie and watched the movie till the end. That night, my siblings and I were eagerly waiting for the movie to end and for my father to henna our hands. After the movie, my father hennaed our hands respectively.

It was late at night and my father was about to sleep when our house door was knocked. At the same time as the door was knocked, someone shouted loudly, "Who is Haji Abdul Ali?" "Come out of your room and open the gate." Some armed people were also surrounding the gate. The voice shouted two or three times and wanted my father. Annoyed by their screams in the middle of the night, my father told them, “Keep your voices down. What's going on in the middle of the night, so much screaming? You know that everyone is sleeping. I am Abdul Ali. Now I will open the gate. What do you want me to do?

When they entered the house, they said: "Haji, what weapon do you have at home?" My father said: “ tow hunting guns, a big and small one." Both are hanging on the wall of the house." The officers took the guns and said: "Haji, we will take you to the police station and then we will return you early morning." They took my father that night and we waited for him to return until morning, but he did not return that night.

On the day of Eid, all the family members, relatives and friends gathered together to celebrate Eid and were waiting for my father's return. It was time for the lunch when the armed men came to our house again. They did not bring my father. We were very worried. This time, they took 6 other members of my family with them: Qurban Ali (my uncle), Sultan Hussain son of my father's uncle, Mohammad Hasan the grandson of my father's uncle, Mohammad Nabi son of my uncle, Ghulam Abbas and Ali Ahmad, grandsons of my uncle.

Fear and worry filled the atmosphere of the house. In the evening of the same day, Haji Rajab Ali, my elder uncle, who was older than my father, came to our house and comforted us and said: "Don't worry, by God's hope, they will all come back." Don't worry as long as I am there." He said to my mother: "I will come tomorrow first thing in the morning, I will bring whatever food and other basic necessities you lack at home." As if he had sensed that my father would not return soon. But the next day, my elder uncle did not come. He was also taken from his house in Chindawol that night.

The night and days of Eid passed and we waited for my father and uncles to return. During the time of Babrak Carmel, Muhammad Nabi, Ali Ahmad and Ghulam Abbas were released in general amnesty. But the others never came back. My brothers and sisters and my uncle's children and I were nine in total, all small children with a year apart in age. We used to ask our mothers every day why my father and uncles didn't come. In the same way, my elder uncle had four children, a boy and a girl, the same age as us. My youngest uncle, who was taken away, still had no children.

Our mothers waited that night and bitter days and even long years for their husbands and shed tears and prayed for their return until they were old and their hair turned white. This wait lasted 35 years. When the Polygon victim list was released, we found the names of five of our family members on it. The wait is over and our hope collapsed; All the family members were just crying.

One day, we went with a number of friends and one of uncle's sons to the hill of Polygon’s victim in Pule cherkhi. When I was walking on the soil of Polygon, I was busy with the question of what my father and uncles said to each other in those heavy moments before death and what were their last words to each other?

After we knew that what has happened to my father and uncles, we honored them, their memories and other victims by organizing a program with a title written in bold: "Even if a hundred years pass, you will not be forgotten."

They brought him covered with a shroud

Narrator: Aminuddin Ahmadi (father)

Victim: Abdul Hakim Ahmadi

The time of the incident: March 2014

The place of the incident: Grishk District, Helmand Province

My name is Aminuddin. My father's name is Ewaz Ahmadi. My son's name is Abdul Hakim. His surname is Ahmadi. He was 21-years-old when he was martyred. He was single and had studied until the ninth grade. At the time of his death, he was a school student. He was with some of his classmates and wanted to go to Iran. He did not say anything about it to me. He had hidden it from me. They were trapped in the middle of a war. He was martyred there in Helmand in Grishk District.

He wanted to go to work because our economic situation was not good. It is still not good now. We were not able to prepare stationary, clothes, and other necessities for him to go to school. He was suffering, so he left. In March 2014, it was raining. None of our family members knew that he left until he reached Kabul. He called me to stop wandering behind me, as I going to Iran.

I told him to come back. I told him in Hazaragi, "There is no bread hanging in Iran for you to collect." He said, "No, I'm going. It's difficult for me to study here." He went with three of his friends. I saw one of his friends who had come with his body. I asked him, and he said that they went to Helmand and stayed in Grishk for the night. In the morning, they wanted to go to the Iranian border. They were walking away from the hotel and the market when they heard gunfire. They walked ten steps back and then a bullet hit him. He fell and remained there.

On the day he was martyred, he remained in Grishk. His friends had called someone in Kabul, probably, as they had friends in the government. So, they coordinated the issue with them. The government brought the body to Kabul and handed him over to the governmental 400 Bed military hospital. Only one bullet hit him on the left side and it came out on the right side.

His friends told us that he was running ahead of them. They said, "He jumped to one side in front of me. I thought somewhere his leg got stuck and fell. I passed him, and I said 'get up and let's go.'" His friend said that Abdul didn't make any sound: "I came a little way back. When he was rolling, he didn't say anything to me. If he did say anything, his conversation was not understood." When they brought him to Kabul. I was in Nayak Bazaar. He had his ID card with him so a government staff member had called relevant officials in Yakawlang District and said that a person reading his name and village had been killed in Grishk, and instructed them to inform his family. I was in the market and I did not know anything about it. A shop keeper from our village called me to go to his shop. I went to his shop and sat in front of his shop.

Then he quickly told me, without introduction, that a man named Abdul Hakim, son of Aminuddin from Tajko Village, was martyred. He asked if I knew him. I said, "No, I don't know." A minute later, I stood and went to the bazaar behind the shop. One of my brothers was in Kabul. I called him, telling him the issue. I found out that someone else had called my brother before calling me, so my brother was already at the hospital. The road to Bamiyan was closed and planes are not accessible to poor people like me. After two days, they left at night. The body came to Bamiyan via Ghorband Valley. The Bamiyan governor cooperated. He provided an ambulance and brought him here. When I heard the news, I went back home. It was already morning. My wife was confused. "What happened?" she asked. "What is up? Why did you come back?" I said that I didn't want to go, and then she looked at me and said, "No, there is a something you aren't telling me." I said that nothing had happened. There is a valley behind our house. I left because she should not know about her son, but she came after me. From there, I turned left and went to my father's house. My father was alive at that time. God forgive me, when I turned left, she followed me again. She followed me and said, "Why are you not telling the truth? What is the matter? Something happened that you are hiding from me."

We were having this conversation when suddenly she fell down as she was paralyzed. None of her arms and legs were working. This was while I had not told her anything yet. You know that our people are a type of people who, when they hear a story, a conversation, they happily go to the top of the hill and shout it and spread that story. I had to say it to my wife myself, as people told me in the market. I told myself that someone may tell her while collecting water or somewhere else, which would not be good for her and me.

So I told her the news. She started crying, she cried loudly. My daughters who was collecting water heard and came to my father’s house. When they arrived at the gate, they understood the story. Whatever was in their hands dropped down and they started crying and moaning. It was a hard time. My younger daughter fell down. Her situation got worse and I had to bring her to the doctor in Yakawlang Hospital. Doctors did not accepted her and referred to Bamiyan Provincial Hospital.

We didn't tell her mother at all where she was. We brought her to Bamiyan Hospital. Bamiyan kept her in bed for three nights. After that, we brought her back. Fatiha ceremony was over. Her mother was always in pain, she was always screaming that she had a headache. We took her to the hospital in Bamiyan. My wife now had a high blood pressure, which was 230 or so. After her son was killed, her blood pressure is always high. My daughter also has a health issue now. If there is any noise, she will fall. Those are my problems.

He was still a child; he did not think about these things that one day his memories would be written. He was a quiet and calm child. If he was sitting in a meeting or in a classroom, he would not speak a single word. If anyone saw, they would think that he might have a problem and maybe he is dumb. But if the teacher asked the lesson, he would explain it the way the teacher explained it. He was extremely sensitive to lies.

We receive 40,000 AFN/year from the Martyrs and Disabled Department. To be honest, in the current situation, we do not have any expectations of government officials because they are corrupt. If you go to them, they would expect you to give them some money. What else can we expect from this kind of the government? His nine grade school books and a picture are left. His friends brought his phone too. Yes, the only thing they brought to me from there is his phone. They didn't bring us any of his clothes from there. They brought him in a shroud from there.

We gave him his clothes here. He had some kind of new clothes. I hid his phone from his mother and his sisters so that they wouldn't see it. I will keep those books and photo in the museum. What can I say about him? Nothing to say. He left us alone. May God grant him paradise. I pray for his soul to be happy.

They Were Shot in Their Chests

Narrator: Asadullah Fayzi

Victim: Baqijan Fayzi

Time of the incident: 1997

The place of the incident: Qorachin Village, Chaharbulak District, Mazar-e-Sharif

Type of incident: Gunshot

My father's name was Baqijan Fayzi. He was almost 38-years-old. He was young at the time of the accident. He had married when he was so young. I was about four or five years old when he died; I was very small. One day, I was standing at the courtyard door. I noticed that as he walked down the alley with another person, a hat was on his head, although he normally didn't wear a hat. I didn't recognize him. I said, "Hey! Hey! Who are you?" He was ahead of me. When he looked, I saw that he was my father. He smiled at me. This was very interesting to me.

My father's birthplace is Qorachin Village, Chaharbolak District, Balkh Province. As a farmer, he was busy with agriculture and peasantry.

He studied in school up to the six and seventh grades, but he had not finished school. He had two children, one girl and one boy. I was older than my sister. I am now 24-years-old. My sister, Fatima, is two years younger than me, she is twenty-two-years-old. She has finished her studies and now she is a schoolteacher. She has also studied up to the fourteenth grade.

The attack happened near our village named Qizilqala. It was Taliban’s last attack, after which the Taliban fell. I think it was 1996 or 1997.

The incident was in the morning, it was eight or nine o'clock. The Taliban came to our village and gathered the people of the village in the mosque. My father told us that he should go too. They took my father and my uncle. After three days, both of them were martyred in Qazal Qala Village as I mentioned. They were serving the people in the village. They were the elders of the village. Taliban killed them anyway. Taliban committed genocide in their first round of attack. They killed so many people in their first attack.

His family started looking for him but did not find him. In the village, someone has seen these two people who had been killed, so they told their families. My cousins, though they were small, had run away from home. They had hide in a plain. My father had told me not to go to the mosque because he was worried that I would be taken by the Taliban, but I said, "No, let them take me too." I was not afraid.

They took them that morning. I remember my father's uncle, who was an elderly person. Taliban tied his hands behind his back and carried him towards the mosque. I did not go to the mosque myself because I was small. When they were taken away, the women were crying. My grandmother was there, my mother was there, but the Taliban did not release anyone.

It was rumored that the people were tied up in a car, dragged, and later shot with bullets. The people who were from our village said so; they had seen it. There were no other witnesses except for them. They had tied my father to a car and dragged him to Qizilqala, a neighboring village. It is relatively far; half an hour away. My father's body was found by the local people. They informed us that they had found two bodies and asked if they were ours. They told me to tell someone to come and take the bodies. My uncle went to the site and recognized the corpses, so he brought them back.

They were taken and thrown in a desert. The day after they were taken, my uncle started asking about them. Where are they? Are they detained? Are they alive? Later, some people informed us that there were two bodies in the desert. My uncle went there and yes, found their bodies. They had been shot in their chests and shoulders. Their faces were destroyed. There were many wounds and scratches on their bodies. My uncle's son’s forehead was badly split. The Taliban had beaten them a lot.

Upon hearing the news, everyone was unwell. My uncle fell unconscious for a few hours out of shock. My father's death changed our lives a lot. We faced many problems. We went through a lot of hardships. Life is really hard without a father. After my father, my uncle and my mother tried to keep the family together. My mother is a seamstress, she has been sewing ever since. The Taliban will do anything for their own benefit.

They don't have much to do with other ethnicities. Charbulok Village is resided by different ethnicities, it is mixed, but they used to harass Hazara people there a lot. They asked them for bread, money, weapons. They used to say to my father, "You are the leader of the Hazara people, you have many weapons. Give us weapons." How many weapons did they give if they had them? The Taliban would come again and search themselves. Because of having [and not having] weapons, they were beaten a lot.

Yes, the responsibility of financing the house was on my father's shoulders. My grandfather was there and my uncle was there. My grandfather was an elderly man. My father was responsible to support the household financially. We all lived in the same house together. Yes, my aunt was there too. Her and her husband lived together with us. The number of family members was big, about twenty, twenty-five people in total. Now there are 9 of us. After my father, my uncles and my mother now support the family. We still live in the same house in our village. That is our own house.

Oh, I was badly affected by the incident. I got a low spirit after it. This made me personally very weak. My mother... my mother suffered a lot, for a long time she was... For now, life is good. It is normal. It's been two years that I'm married and other family members were separated from us. My uncle and his family are now in Mazar Sharif. My cousins (my mother’s brothers) are here. They are almost at the same place as us; our houses are side-by-side.

Currently, there is no war in our village. Because our village is close to Chaharbulak District - just twenty minutes away - Taliban come to our village but don’t go further. Taliban often attack from this side and the government shoots them back. A month ago, Taliban took all other villages. Only our village was left. In our village, there was a government base, but they left after the other villages were captured. Taliban come periodically, once or twice a week, and the government does not.

Although the government is close (we can see them from the village), they don't fight as much as they did in the past and don’t come to our village. Taliban take tithes and zakat from local people. Tithes is about wheat. From ten bushels of wheat, they will take one bushel. From twenty bushels, they will take two bushels. Everyone gives. If someone doesn't give, he will be punished. Taliban announced that people must wait for them to come and count the bushels of their harvest, so that the Taliban can take some right away.

Yes, there are schools. Girls go to school. The school is in our village. The girls are up to 9th grade. They say their teachers should be women. Girls were not going to school for a while when Taliban came; the schools were off for a few days. After that, school resumed.

There were many people who left their jobs in government offices due to fear of the Taliban in this district. Even the cleaners left their duties due to fear. They didn't go to the office anymore. There were a few more soldiers from our own village, they were scared because there have been so many fights. Many people were killed in the war. Soldiers managed to take a letter from the Taliban, it was a guarantee that they would not be soldiers anymore, they could go and work in their village. Although they are no longer soldiers, they could not come to their village to see their families.

There were national police present to ensure the security of Qora Chin Village. In addition to police, there were militia (called ARBAKI: local armed men) supported by the government. Arbakis were harassing people and stealing people’s property. I didn't see it myself, but people of the village say so. They have many stories. According to one story, people stopped a man on his motorcycle one night. While their faces were covered, they took away all his valuables. The Taliban is back; Arbakis don't do those things. Arbakis are also completely gone, our area has been completely cleared. It is only the district center, which is under the control of the government.

The Taliban are from the neighbouring villages. Some are from our village too. Local Talib accompany the outsiders, they are together. No, they don't harass civilians.

Our wish is peace. Since the government is there in the center, they don't want war either. Their people and many of their soldiers were martyred, they were killed. Other police bases were taken by the Taliban.

If the government fights with the Taliban, it is good to clean up our areas. Make it peaceful and calm, so that everyone can do their jobs and go to school. Our biggest wish is that there will be peace and prosperity for our homeland. Many people in Chaharbulak are complaining about the insecurity. They are tired of it. One day, people should be able to take care of their business and land properly. My father was a good-natured person. Even now, everyone who comes praises my father a lot. No, my grandmother has passed away. We buried my father in a cemetery near the village, yes, in the village of Qorah Chin.

His Body was Swollen

Narrator: Azadeh Sadat Hussaini (Daughter)

Victim: Fatima

Time of the incident: 08 August 1999

Place of the accident: Mazar-e-Sharif, Pole Merab Type of accident: Hit by shrapnel

My name is Azadeh. My mother was married several years after my father. Now my ID card is in my stepfather's name. I am Azadeh Seyyed Salman in the ID and my real father's name is Seyed Shah Mohammad. His surname is Sadat Hosseini. The victim is my mother, her name is Fatima. Fatima Seyed Nasro, her name on her NID. Surname? No, she did not have a surname.

She was killed in Pole Merab by shrapnel while fleeing in the plain. They were running towards the Charkent which is above from here. The area is mountainous. We buried her in Pole Merab. When the Taliban came in the first round and took the whole city, they stayed for a few years. It was June or July. The wheat had grown. People were running away to the Charkent out of fear. Many were hiding in the wheat which saved their lives.

Shima: There was no wheat on our side. I remember a day when the weather was very hot, many people died when they fled to the mountains.

Azadeh: What exactly happened, what happened? I don't remember much. I was married. People said that she had so many splinters in her armpit that she never recovered. My mother was 55-years-old. When she came home, she could not speak. Later, she told the story that she was running away: "While I was riding a donkey, I suddenly got some sharp objects in my body. I didn't understand where they came from. My body only felt burning and blood flowed. If I wasn't riding that donkey, maybe the shrapnel wouldn't have hit me." The iron pieces had not gone deep. Some were pulled out by hand. But there was no doctor in the Charkent. The wounds became infected and after four months, she was brought to Mazar City. We took her to a doctor, but it didn't work at all. She was scared.

We live in Pole Merab. When the Taliban came, most of the people of the city fled. But we didn't go. My husband did not go. Everyone fled to Charkent. The city was empty. People stayed there for a while until the city calmed down. Some came early, those who had problems came early, those who didn't have problems stayed even for a year. When it was completely calm, everyone returned to their homes and lives.

Mentally, one feels a lot of pain and suffering. When my mother passed away, her house and life fell apart. My father left one way, my sister went her way, she was single, but she got married unintentionally. We don't know where she is anymore. My poor father was sick, often he came to my house. I had no place for him and I was pregnant. What did I do? I found a wife for him. Yes, now he has gone back to his house and has a wife. He has many children from this wife. Well, that's how it happened, no one of us... no one left of my family. I have a sister, she was in Iran. It's been a few years since she has come. She was also not there. It was really hard for me, I was completely alone...

Taliban took [my husband], took him from the market, took him away, we were completely disappointed. Because when Talib took anyone, he never came back. But God helped, of course he had to live for a while in this world. He came back. When he came, I couldn't recognize him at all. His body was totally black; he didn't have a single white spot because he was beaten. His body was swollen. He was sleeping in front of the window and everyone who saw him was afraid. I sat one night until the morning. I dressed his severely injured body. I gave him medicine. He was moaning and could not sleep. This situation continued for several days. But when the Taliban were defeated, our neighbours said that he should not sit there like that. If the Taliban came again and saw him in that state, they would question what he did to be beaten so badly.

After that, they took him to the village. For a month, I was with my daughter, the same daughter who is here. I was alone in the house with a woman who was a neighbour. We have seen many bad days, no expenses, nothing... To survive, I had to sell the houseware to buy food items. Nothing was left for us, nothing. My poor husband became disabled. He can't work. Heavy work hurts his back. Many of us have seen bad days. It was very difficult for me. My poor husband had never used a weapon. He was a laborer and ordinary citizen. The people who had guns, power, and money went away way before Taliban came. We the poor were trampled.

I don't remember anything. He came home late at night on the same day they took him. He used to say that he couldn't come home on my foot; he walked from the city to the house like a child using his hands and knees. His knees were swollen. He said that Taliban made me sleep, one of them stood on his feet, one of them put his foot on his back, and one of them put his foot on his neck. They hit him three times with a big cable with three locks tied at the end of it. They said to give them weapons. He said he doesn't have a weapon. They said to give them a weapon soon. Helpless, he is now disabled and can no longer work.

If he finds light work, he will do it, but he cannot do heavy work. He was beaten savagely. Taliban's takeover ended up very difficult for ordinary people. No one has good memories of that time, they all have bad memories.

When I regained consciousness, one was lying on the right side and the other on the left side.

Aziza Akbari was born in Sangcharak District of Sar-e Pul Province in Tebar Village. She grew up in Balkh. She studied education in Balkh Province and studies medicine in a private university. She is a twenty-year-old and is the cousin of the victims. She speaks very slowly and describes the incident.

Narrator: Aziza Akbari (Uncle's Daughter)

Victims: Ahmad Sohail and Marhaba

Date of the incident: November 2017

Location of the incident: Mirzavalang, Saiyad District, Sar-e Pol Province

In the winter of 2017, the Taliban attack Tabar Village - my village -which was the center of several other villages. If they took this village, they would be able to increase their control and possessions over other villages. So, they would attack this village a lot. When people got info about the Taliban’s attack on our village, people would run away to save their lives. They would take only one piece of clothing and save the family members. They would close their homes and run away to save their lives. The Taliban had spies among the people.

My uncle had three sons and two daughters. He prevented his eldest son from going to school and wanted him to be a Quran reciter. He had taken him to the reciters. One day while he was reciting, his hands were on his feet. His teacher (the Mullah) had slashed him with a stick. The sick hit on one of his eyes. He had poor eyesight for one or two weeks, and in the third week, he told his father that he couldn't see with his right eye. After that, his father wanted to take him to Pakistan for treatment. He was in Mazar-e-Sharif at the time, when Taliban suddenly invaded and occupied our area. He called his family to come out of the house and told his wife to take their children and go to a safe area.

The mother takes her two daughters and one of her sons, her other son left the area with his uncle. In the third day of the war, she heard that war had ended and everybody could go home. She had gone back with her two children; one daughter, Marhaba, and one of her sons, Sohail. Unfortunately, she was trapped in the middle of war, near their house; they had heard wrong information. At the time of the incident, I was in Mazar-e-Sharif with my family. We moved here after 2016 and they were there.

She has gone early in the morning at breakfast time. They were trapped until 11AM. My uncle's wife told us that we were in the warzone. A mortar or rocket directly hit my daughter and she was martyred on the spot. I was unconscious and when I regained my consciousness, the sun was shining on my head and the Taliban were walking here and there. They did not help us. Her son had all his intestines protruding from his abdomen. It was around 12:00 o'clock - lunch time, we got the news that two of her children were martyred.

My uncle was at our home and he was informed that he should go to the site as soon as possible. My uncle's wife said that when the incident happened, it was early in the morning as there were shadows. The sun passed over our heads; it was around 12 noon. I kept calling out that my daughter and I were okay, please help my son at least. First, the Taliban were careless. After a while, the Taliban put all his intestines in his stomach and took him to the mosque, then my younger uncle took Sohail to a hospital. His situation was so bad that even my uncle could not look at him. As said, his father was here in Mazar, he wanted to go to Pakistan. When he heard the news, he moved directly from Mazar to Sar-e Pol. He had brought his wife and son to the center of Sar-e Pol. His daughter had been killed immediately on the spot, she had been hit directly. Her mother was also severely wounded on her right leg and she was operated on several times. Sohail had been taken to Sar-e Pol, then to Sheberghan and to Mazar-e-Sharif. Sohail was operated on twice in Mazar-e-Sharif.

They only operated on his stomach and did not do anything with his legs. Doctors had operated first on his stomach and moved his intestines, then wanted to work on his legs. After a few days, the poor boy’s foot became microbial.

The boy was able to chat normally every day. He chatted in such a way that we thought that no accident had happened to him at all. But he would suddenly faint; he was getting weaker every day. Finally, Sohail was taken to Kabul. They reached out to all sides and authorities. We said we should at least save the boy’s life. With a lot of effort, they reached the emergency hospital in Kabul where it is very difficult to accept such patients.

He had been to the children's hospital in Kabul. I don't know exactly. He was operated on there too. He became weaker day-by-day and in the days close to his death, he could not even speak. When doctors opened the bandage of his legs, they faced a very bad condition. After the operation, they informed him that he had died. I don't know when Sohail Jan passed away.

He was alive for about 38 or 40 days. He had been taken from one hospital to another one. He had undergone various operations until finally he was martyred.

When Marhaba was brought to be buried, none of us saw her. It was said that her scarf was not even removed from her head, but when you touched her, all her bones were broken into pieces. Her single bones were completely torn apart under her skin.

Their mother said: "It was a mortar or a rocket. When it hit, the whole place was covered in dust. I didn't see anything, I lost my consciousness... When I regained consciousness, my daughter was on my left, my son was on my right. My daughter had been martyred and my son was saying, 'Mother!' No matter how much I told the Taliban to help me to at least save my son, they did not pay attention."

They were so cruel that they didn't even pay attention to the fact that this child was lying here, and they should take him a little under the shade. She said that there were people in the houses at that time, but they could not come out to save his life. There was a person in the neighbouring house who threw a plastic sheet out from under the door to cover the girl's body, but he could not get out himself.

There are local Taliban in the village among the people. When we called them many times and begged them, they took my child to the mosque and the Taliban who were from other areas did not help.

No, no, his mother didn't have a phone. At twelve o'clock, my uncle received a call from the village that his wife and children were martyred and he must come collect them. It was still 1 o'clock when the mother of my uncle’s wife arrived at the scene of the incident and took her daughter to the mosque, and from the mosque to the district clinic.

The Taliban brought the boy to the mosque and my younger uncle took the boy. The mother of my uncle’s wife, granddaughter of my uncle, together with my aunt's husband, went to the area. They put the body of the girl inside the roller. They had taken both the boy and the girl to Sar-e Pol.

My uncle’s wife herself does not talk about her pain, she was only worried about her children's health. When they took her to Sheberghan, her leg was operated on so she had to stay there, but her son was brought to Mazar-e-Sharif. It was November, and the village was calm and quiet. Then after 30 days, she was still worried about her son and was saying: My daughter was killed, my son should stay alive." 38 or 40 days later, when she heard that her son died too, she was mentally destroyed. She sat in her place and she could not get up for almost a year. Her eldest daughter was doing her work. Only God and herself know her pain and grief.

My uncle was a very brave man, he showed his bravery here in this very difficult time as he did not raise his noise. He was a tall man who, when you look him from his back, you'd think he was an eighty-year-old man, he was bent over like that. He became like that after the incident. Now the whole area is under the control of Taliban. The center of Sangcharak District is under the government.

Before the incident, my uncle was telling his wife not to go to the village. He called her every minute saying not go anywhere and to stay at her mother's house. She had gone out at once, but she came back soon. Someone had told her that it was good she came back. But she could not wait and told her, "Let me go and check my house once, war is ended." She moved towards the house without my uncle knowing it.

People walk there and don't use cars so much. It has been an hour walk. Her family knew, but my uncle and our family did not know that they had moved to that direction. The war was going on in the village. Some say that it was the government's rocket or mortar, and some say that Taliban deliberately hit this family. It is not clear whether the Taliban hit or the government's aerial missiles hit as the war was intense at that time.

I think it was the second war in the region, after that it was always sporadic fighting. Our village was very good in every way before that, it was populated, peaceful, and green. But when Taliban captured the area, the village was not like it was in the past. Taliban were oppressing/harassing people and shopkeepers. Taliban were taking tithe based on the goods available in the shop. They charged every shop 10-15000Afn. There are many good grape gardens in our village, which produce a lot of grape every year. Grape is the main source of income of people in our village. Taliban takes tithes of these local products.

In my opinion, the incident was as a result of difference among the people. Some take the government's side and some the Taliban's side. Taliban has put a lot of pressure on the people and propagated against the government. When you go to the village nowadays, people praise the Taliban a lot. People are not united. These differences caused the area to collapse at the hand of the Taliban.

First the Taliban killed all elders, influential people, those who could read and write, or those who could speak in public. They would kill them either at night, or on their way to somewhere, or in the evening when they came out of the mosque, or when coming out of Friday prayer. They were killed everywhere. Now when you go to the village, there is not a single person left who can write or speak. Yes, they were killed in the first stage. Then, Taliban occupied the village themselves.

It has been almost ten years since we came here (Mazar City) to study. We only went for three months in winter and one month in summer because of holidays.

Currently, the mother, eldest daughter, and one of her sons live in our village, in Tebar. My uncle has taken his eldest son to Turkey to treat his eye, which was hurt by a Mullah.

Our only wish is peace and stabilization in the area. Nothing is more important than peace. When it is calm, you are fully healthy. Can you believe that when there is a war between the government and the Taliban, people leave their homes and properties? They can’t go back to the area for a long time. You know how much they would be harmed? How much they suffer? We only want peace, we don't want anything else.

I don't know whether the government is paying attention to the perpetrators of this incident or not. In my opinion, the government should pay attention to these kinds of issues, otherwise everyone will become indifferent to the government. The government starts a war for a short time, doesn't try to capture the area, then stops the war and leaves the area. Their operations must be successful. If they can’t do it, they should not do it at all. What is the point of such operations? Only civilians are killed in the war. There are no other results of their unsuccessful operations.

In this case, it is better that Taliban take the area, so that people don’t die in the war. As a citizen, I want the government to bring peace throughout the country. How long we are displaced and go from one region to another to protect our lives. We just want peace.

Taliban are very cruel people. People come from the village and tell us stories of Taliban bad behavior and cruelty.

You should wear Burqa there. Villagers say that Taliban made a pipe out of animal skin and filled it up with coins. When something is against their will, they whip the person in public. They have dangerous appearance. We cannot go out into the street. Most grown-ups have left the village and there are small people living in the community. If we go out of the house, we have to put on Chadari. For Taliban it makes no difference if you are a 12 or 15-year-old girl, everyone has to put on Chadari.

They allowed school only until the sixth grade, girls can’t go to school above the sixth grade. The situation is not good at all, people have to fulfill all Taliban expenses. They enter a mosque and say that tonight they are guests. People are poor. Those who were not poor have become poor and left the village. This is what the Taliban do.

My uncle had five children, two of them were martyred and three remain. His eldest daughter is about 16-years-old. She was a school student. She is not allowed to study anymore. His son Nurul Amin is almost 14-years-old. If children are going to school, they must wear white clothes and caps. School teachers are from the same area. They teach the children. My uncle has another daughter, her name is Nabila. She is married. It has been 16 years that she has lived in her own independent house.

My uncle was the only breadwinner of his family. He had a three tired motorcycle and a house of their own. The mental condition of the mother has not improved yet. She remembers her children, how can her mental state improve? She is withered and unwell and can't walk. She hasn't been able to walk for almost two years now. How can she forget such a heartbreaking incident where two of her children were martyred? Her mental state is very bad for now.

Her elder daughter is also not in a good state. If you call her ten times, she will not respond. She saw her brother in that situation and she witnessed her younger sister where the incident took place. She is not normal, she was also affected mentally.

Marhaba Jan was buried in the same area where her grandmother lived, and martyr Ahmad Sohail was buried in his own area.

As far as my memories are concerned, I have many sweet memories from my childhood. Because we all lived in the same village. We all gathered in one place in the evening. Sohail was a funny kid, he used to annoy us a lot, but the girl was calm. Whenever I stayed at their house, in the morning when I was sleeping - I liked this habit a lot - in the morning after the prayer call, if it was winter, she would bring warm water and wake me up to do my prayer. She paid a lot of attention to prayer and recited Quran very well.

At that age, she was very kind. She always used to wake me up in the morning when I was in their house. This was a good memory and I liked it. It is a custom that they give all their belongings to somebody. Marhaba Jan made a knitted dress for herself. I have brought that for the museum.

When I regained consciousness, one was lying on the right side and the other on the left side.

Aziza Akbari was born in Sangcharak District of Sar-e Pul Province in Tebar Village. She grew up in Balkh. She studied education in Balkh Province and studies medicine in a private university. She is a twenty-year-old and is the cousin of the victims. She speaks very slowly and describes the incident.

Narrator: Aziza Akbari (Uncle's Daughter)

Victims: Ahmad Sohail and Marhaba

Date of the incident: November 2017

Location of the incident: Mirzavalang, Saiyad District, Sar-e Pol Province

In the winter of 2017, the Taliban attack Tabar Village - my village -which was the center of several other villages. If they took this village, they would be able to increase their control and possessions over other villages. So, they would attack this village a lot. When people got info about the Taliban’s attack on our village, people would run away to save their lives. They would take only one piece of clothing and save the family members. They would close their homes and run away to save their lives. The Taliban had spies among the people.

My uncle had three sons and two daughters. He prevented his eldest son from going to school and wanted him to be a Quran reciter. He had taken him to the reciters. One day while he was reciting, his hands were on his feet. His teacher (the Mullah) had slashed him with a stick. The sick hit on one of his eyes. He had poor eyesight for one or two weeks, and in the third week, he told his father that he couldn't see with his right eye. After that, his father wanted to take him to Pakistan for treatment. He was in Mazar-e-Sharif at the time, when Taliban suddenly invaded and occupied our area. He called his family to come out of the house and told his wife to take their children and go to a safe area.

The mother takes her two daughters and one of her sons, her other son left the area with his uncle. In the third day of the war, she heard that war had ended and everybody could go home. She had gone back with her two children; one daughter, Marhaba, and one of her sons, Sohail. Unfortunately, she was trapped in the middle of war, near their house; they had heard wrong information. At the time of the incident, I was in Mazar-e-Sharif with my family. We moved here after 2016 and they were there.

She has gone early in the morning at breakfast time. They were trapped until 11AM. My uncle's wife told us that we were in the warzone. A mortar or rocket directly hit my daughter and she was martyred on the spot. I was unconscious and when I regained my consciousness, the sun was shining on my head and the Taliban were walking here and there. They did not help us. Her son had all his intestines protruding from his abdomen. It was around 12:00 o'clock - lunch time, we got the news that two of her children were martyred.

My uncle was at our home and he was informed that he should go to the site as soon as possible. My uncle's wife said that when the incident happened, it was early in the morning as there were shadows. The sun passed over our heads; it was around 12 noon. I kept calling out that my daughter and I were okay, please help my son at least. First, the Taliban were careless. After a while, the Taliban put all his intestines in his stomach and took him to the mosque, then my younger uncle took Sohail to a hospital. His situation was so bad that even my uncle could not look at him. As said, his father was here in Mazar, he wanted to go to Pakistan. When he heard the news, he moved directly from Mazar to Sar-e Pol. He had brought his wife and son to the center of Sar-e Pol. His daughter had been killed immediately on the spot, she had been hit directly. Her mother was also severely wounded on her right leg and she was operated on several times. Sohail had been taken to Sar-e Pol, then to Sheberghan and to Mazar-e-Sharif. Sohail was operated on twice in Mazar-e-Sharif.

They only operated on his stomach and did not do anything with his legs. Doctors had operated first on his stomach and moved his intestines, then wanted to work on his legs. After a few days, the poor boy’s foot became microbial.

The boy was able to chat normally every day. He chatted in such a way that we thought that no accident had happened to him at all. But he would suddenly faint; he was getting weaker every day. Finally, Sohail was taken to Kabul. They reached out to all sides and authorities. We said we should at least save the boy’s life. With a lot of effort, they reached the emergency hospital in Kabul where it is very difficult to accept such patients.

He had been to the children's hospital in Kabul. I don't know exactly. He was operated on there too. He became weaker day-by-day and in the days close to his death, he could not even speak. When doctors opened the bandage of his legs, they faced a very bad condition. After the operation, they informed him that he had died. I don't know when Sohail Jan passed away.

He was alive for about 38 or 40 days. He had been taken from one hospital to another one. He had undergone various operations until finally he was martyred.

When Marhaba was brought to be buried, none of us saw her. It was said that her scarf was not even removed from her head, but when you touched her, all her bones were broken into pieces. Her single bones were completely torn apart under her skin.

Their mother said: "It was a mortar or a rocket. When it hit, the whole place was covered in dust. I didn't see anything, I lost my consciousness... When I regained consciousness, my daughter was on my left, my son was on my right. My daughter had been martyred and my son was saying, 'Mother!' No matter how much I told the Taliban to help me to at least save my son, they did not pay attention."

They were so cruel that they didn't even pay attention to the fact that this child was lying here, and they should take him a little under the shade. She said that there were people in the houses at that time, but they could not come out to save his life. There was a person in the neighbouring house who threw a plastic sheet out from under the door to cover the girl's body, but he could not get out himself.

There are local Taliban in the village among the people. When we called them many times and begged them, they took my child to the mosque and the Taliban who were from other areas did not help.

No, no, his mother didn't have a phone. At twelve o'clock, my uncle received a call from the village that his wife and children were martyred and he must come collect them. It was still 1 o'clock when the mother of my uncle’s wife arrived at the scene of the incident and took her daughter to the mosque, and from the mosque to the district clinic.

The Taliban brought the boy to the mosque and my younger uncle took the boy. The mother of my uncle’s wife, granddaughter of my uncle, together with my aunt's husband, went to the area. They put the body of the girl inside the roller. They had taken both the boy and the girl to Sar-e Pol.

My uncle’s wife herself does not talk about her pain, she was only worried about her children's health. When they took her to Sheberghan, her leg was operated on so she had to stay there, but her son was brought to Mazar-e-Sharif. It was November, and the village was calm and quiet. Then after 30 days, she was still worried about her son and was saying: My daughter was killed, my son should stay alive." 38 or 40 days later, when she heard that her son died too, she was mentally destroyed. She sat in her place and she could not get up for almost a year. Her eldest daughter was doing her work. Only God and herself know her pain and grief.

My uncle was a very brave man, he showed his bravery here in this very difficult time as he did not raise his noise. He was a tall man who, when you look him from his back, you'd think he was an eighty-year-old man, he was bent over like that. He became like that after the incident. Now the whole area is under the control of Taliban. The center of Sangcharak District is under the government.

Before the incident, my uncle was telling his wife not to go to the village. He called her every minute saying not go anywhere and to stay at her mother's house. She had gone out at once, but she came back soon. Someone had told her that it was good she came back. But she could not wait and told her, "Let me go and check my house once, war is ended." She moved towards the house without my uncle knowing it.

People walk there and don't use cars so much. It has been an hour walk. Her family knew, but my uncle and our family did not know that they had moved to that direction. The war was going on in the village. Some say that it was the government's rocket or mortar, and some say that Taliban deliberately hit this family. It is not clear whether the Taliban hit or the government's aerial missiles hit as the war was intense at that time.

I think it was the second war in the region, after that it was always sporadic fighting. Our village was very good in every way before that, it was populated, peaceful, and green. But when Taliban captured the area, the village was not like it was in the past. Taliban were oppressing/harassing people and shopkeepers. Taliban were taking tithe based on the goods available in the shop. They charged every shop 10-15000Afn. There are many good grape gardens in our village, which produce a lot of grape every year. Grape is the main source of income of people in our village. Taliban takes tithes of these local products.

In my opinion, the incident was as a result of difference among the people. Some take the government's side and some the Taliban's side. Taliban has put a lot of pressure on the people and propagated against the government. When you go to the village nowadays, people praise the Taliban a lot. People are not united. These differences caused the area to collapse at the hand of the Taliban.

First the Taliban killed all elders, influential people, those who could read and write, or those who could speak in public. They would kill them either at night, or on their way to somewhere, or in the evening when they came out of the mosque, or when coming out of Friday prayer. They were killed everywhere. Now when you go to the village, there is not a single person left who can write or speak. Yes, they were killed in the first stage. Then, Taliban occupied the village themselves.

It has been almost ten years since we came here (Mazar City) to study. We only went for three months in winter and one month in summer because of holidays.

Currently, the mother, eldest daughter, and one of her sons live in our village, in Tebar. My uncle has taken his eldest son to Turkey to treat his eye, which was hurt by a Mullah.

Our only wish is peace and stabilization in the area. Nothing is more important than peace. When it is calm, you are fully healthy. Can you believe that when there is a war between the government and the Taliban, people leave their homes and properties? They can’t go back to the area for a long time. You know how much they would be harmed? How much they suffer? We only want peace, we don't want anything else.

I don't know whether the government is paying attention to the perpetrators of this incident or not. In my opinion, the government should pay attention to these kinds of issues, otherwise everyone will become indifferent to the government. The government starts a war for a short time, doesn't try to capture the area, then stops the war and leaves the area. Their operations must be successful. If they can’t do it, they should not do it at all. What is the point of such operations? Only civilians are killed in the war. There are no other results of their unsuccessful operations.

In this case, it is better that Taliban take the area, so that people don’t die in the war. As a citizen, I want the government to bring peace throughout the country. How long we are displaced and go from one region to another to protect our lives. We just want peace.

Taliban are very cruel people. People come from the village and tell us stories of Taliban bad behavior and cruelty.

You should wear Burqa there. Villagers say that Taliban made a pipe out of animal skin and filled it up with coins. When something is against their will, they whip the person in public. They have dangerous appearance. We cannot go out into the street. Most grown-ups have left the village and there are small people living in the community. If we go out of the house, we have to put on Chadari. For Taliban it makes no difference if you are a 12 or 15-year-old girl, everyone has to put on Chadari.

They allowed school only until the sixth grade, girls can’t go to school above the sixth grade. The situation is not good at all, people have to fulfill all Taliban expenses. They enter a mosque and say that tonight they are guests. People are poor. Those who were not poor have become poor and left the village. This is what the Taliban do.

My uncle had five children, two of them were martyred and three remain. His eldest daughter is about 16-years-old. She was a school student. She is not allowed to study anymore. His son Nurul Amin is almost 14-years-old. If children are going to school, they must wear white clothes and caps. School teachers are from the same area. They teach the children. My uncle has another daughter, her name is Nabila. She is married. It has been 16 years that she has lived in her own independent house.

My uncle was the only breadwinner of his family. He had a three tired motorcycle and a house of their own. The mental condition of the mother has not improved yet. She remembers her children, how can her mental state improve? She is withered and unwell and can't walk. She hasn't been able to walk for almost two years now. How can she forget such a heartbreaking incident where two of her children were martyred? Her mental state is very bad for now.

Her elder daughter is also not in a good state. If you call her ten times, she will not respond. She saw her brother in that situation and she witnessed her younger sister where the incident took place. She is not normal, she was also affected mentally.

Marhaba Jan was buried in the same area where her grandmother lived, and martyr Ahmad Sohail was buried in his own area.

As far as my memories are concerned, I have many sweet memories from my childhood. Because we all lived in the same village. We all gathered in one place in the evening. Sohail was a funny kid, he used to annoy us a lot, but the girl was calm. Whenever I stayed at their house, in the morning when I was sleeping - I liked this habit a lot - in the morning after the prayer call, if it was winter, she would bring warm water and wake me up to do my prayer. She paid a lot of attention to prayer and recited Quran very well.

At that age, she was very kind. She always used to wake me up in the morning when I was in their house. This was a good memory and I liked it. It is a custom that they give all their belongings to somebody. Marhaba Jan made a knitted dress for herself. I have brought that for the museum.

Mother's Breadwinner Went

Note: He has lost everything. He says, "My name is Zabihullah, son of Abdullah, a resident of 8th District, Tang Shah Shahid 1st street. Anyone who comes to the first road should ask: where is the place a suicide attack has happened? Where is Zabihullah’s house?"

Zabihullah is a disabled person who has no hands and no eyes. “I have neither hands nor eyes, and my legs are secured with skewers.” These are the same phrases that Zabijullah expresses in his introduction, and shows the summary and clear results of the war to everyone. No more explanation is needed about him. What he says is the truth that the war has put on him and his family.

The story starts from the point where we ask him for permission to film and take pictures of the interview. He gives permission and tells his story in a strange, constant, and current dialogue that goes on always between all people. A conversation between him, his sister (Zhila Abdali), and his wife (Adela), who are sitting together in the interview session, continues and forms the meaningful thread of the narrative. In addition to how Faisal and Ahmadullah were victimized, the life of the narrator is also mentioned and said. If we pay a little attention, the corner of the life of five people is expressed in a dialogue that is sometimes accompanied by anger and insults.

Zabihullah's physical condition is such that he cannot move without his wife and sister. These two women are also narrators who have their own account of the incident. Although a large part of the speech is from Zabihullah, they also speak their words, each of them recorded in their own place. We have not changed the structure of the narration, and we have recorded it in the order in which they spoke.

Narrator: Dagarwal Zabihullah

Victims: Faisal and Ahmadullah

Time of the incident: 29 March 2015

Place of the incident: Kabul City, Shah Shahid

I say, take a hundred photos, scare someone from taking a photo who really is scared of it. Today, you brothers who are working for human rights, who defend human rights firmly and stubbornly in our homeland - today you come to talk to us. You seek info about the martyrs, you interview their heirs. I thank you on behalf of the families of the martyrs of Shah Shaheed and district eight, district nine, and district ten of Kabul City. I am extremely grateful of human rights activists. I am especially happy for the branches that have opened offices in every corner of the city, making them ready to reach the problems of all districts and people of Afghanistan regarding human rights. Your efforts are appreciated.

We are the family of two martyrs (actually four martyrs; two martyrs belong to the distant past), the two school students who were killed on 29 March 2015 as a result of a suicide attack in district 8 in front of Abdul Ghafoor Nadim pharmacy. One of them was Faisal, my son, a ninth-grade student at Sirat private school. The second one was Ahmadullah, my niece, whose mother is here with us. Both of them were in the same school.

They used to go to private school at 6 in the morning and come back at one o'clock. Then they would go to the pharmacy. There, they would do their homework and work until eight in the evening. They had a 2.5 to 3000 AFN salary per month. They were killed on 29 March 2015, and the funeral ceremony was held on the 30th March 2015, at Eidgah Mosque. Then they were buried in their eternal home.

Today, when we see people shouting about democracy, they are talking about human rights. We are not pessimistic about both; we are half pessimistic. What kind of human right is this? Today, when one commits theft, looting, murder, and fights against the government, and human rights activists stand against the government and say don't torture or execute this person, don't kill them, human rights say this? Today, as a result of a suicide attack on a Member of Parliament (MP), our children were killed. How come human rights organization and activist do not investigate and ask about them? We remember the Siyasang incident; how many people were killed, how many people lost their lives. They were our brothers and they are no longer with us. We are the educated people of Afghanistan, we are matured Afghans: Tajiks, Turkmen, Uzbeks... We live under the flag of Afghanistan and are subject to one human right, not ten human rights. America has its own human rights, England has its own, Canada... Well, four continents of the world have human rights, but we only know the human rights that work on a global level. Today, we request that the families of the martyrs, those who have no home, no place, and no life, not only my children, all victims, I say, do not give me anything. Human rights organization and activists should have a consideration in this regard. Let the leaders understand that martyrs have no age, brother!

A ten-years-old, twelve-years-old martyr is the breadwinner of his family. What does the Martyrs and Disabled Ministry say? "A boy should be 18-years-old, a girl should be 16-years-old", while this is the age of marriage in the Afghan Civil law and in the Afghan Constitution, it is not the age of martyrdom?! You might have seen, among those who are killed, most of them are young children. They work as car washers, newspaper sellers, plastic collectors, or those kids who help the taxi drivers calling for passengers, calling the routes so that people know and get on board; they are breadwinners. These are the innocent and pure children who are killed by the cruel. They are killed by those who do not fear God, the foreign enemies of Afghanistan, the hundred-year-old enemies of Afghanistan; they have no mercy in Afghanistan and they are killing our people. They kill our children, kill our daughters, kill our fathers and mothers... it even destroys our journalist brothers and human rights activists. Why are human rights organizations being silent today? For the sake of God, the head of the Afghan Human Rights Commission should stand up, warn, threaten, and sit with the Secretary of the United Nations, saying that they are the head of human rights in Afghanistan and telling of the situation in the country.

Today, I speak on behalf of all the bereaved people of Afghanistan, whether it is my Tajik brother, my Uzbek brother, or my Turkmen brother; we are all Afghans. Right now, in this gathering, we are all members of the same family, we are around the same table. We request the same from human rights organizations to pay a bit of attention to this country. For what oppression and tyranny has been imposed on the people of Afghanistan, this human rights organization should send a curse on them. It should say that they are tyrant, don't fear God, and question why they kill children and their brothers. Today, human right organizations advocate for the rights of a thief, the rights of a murderer. A Muslim girl was stoned to death in Shahe Du Shamshera. Women are killed everywhere in the country.

We demand human rights organizations and activists do not defend the rights of reactionary, tyrannical, treacherous, and traitorous people. For the sake of God, defend the tribes, take our voices to the head of human rights organizations. Say that (swear on what you believe in), Afghan people demand that. Please, keep the war away from our homeland. The head of human rights should discuss this with the elders, with the leaders of America, England, France, with the Secretary General of the United Nations, the President of Pakistan, and the President of Afghanistan. How long will war and killing continue in Afghanistan? How long will mothers suffer? Let the tears dry in their eyes.

The breadwinner of the family has been killed. He had a 6000 AFN income. Their children's funeral costed 300,000 AFN, where can they get this from? Pay attention to these human rights today. We demand human rights organizations to pay attention towards of Afghanistan. We are neither happy with the government nor with human rights if this is not prevented.

This was the pain in my heart that I said on behalf of the people of Afghanistan, on behalf of the martyrs of Shah Shaheed, the martyrs of District Six and District Seven. Today, I brought their voice to you through the media, through the news, through the computer... we request the Secretary General of the United Nations; we have the same request to punish our leaders and elders of Afghanistan! Tell them, you are oppressors. Afghan children are being killed today, and you call the enemy a friend? An enemy never becomes a friend. We never befriend our enemy and never accept this friendship.

This is what we request you to convey to the head of human rights of the whole world. We have a human rights commission chief, there are human rights offices in every province, in every country, but we request you convey the same to the human rights chiefs of the four continents of the world. Come today to defend these human rights.

Don’t defend from the rights of the thief, murderer.... What young people have we not lost? See his picture there (the victim’s picture was on the wall). Just a young child, had just got a mustache, 9th grade of school. I put him to the eternal grave. I don't have anything else to say. Again, I request you and your central office, which serves in Afghanistan, to convey my message to higher levels through your organization. I wish killing and war doesn’t continue in Afghanistan. Afghanistan should not become like Iraq and Syria. We have the same request for the human rights community to make an effort to stay away from the murderers and to try to bring peace and tranquility to the country. If there is a question, I am ready to answer. I shared my pain which was not mine alone; it was from all over Afghanistan.

- Zhila: We also demand the same from human rights...

- Zabihullah: Now listen, Hamid Jan.

- Zhila: ...to stop murder, fratricide, infanticide of mothers. I had a child at the time, only one child. My guardian was my child, he was my hope. I don't have any relatives anymore.

- Zabihullah: Her husband too...

- Zhila: It has been ten years since my husband left me. He disappeared from Kandahar. I am a teacher and I live only with a small income. I have no house, no place, no life. I wonder what to do with my life. I completed the twelfth grade of school and three years in a faculty… They take me as nothing, they say I am nothing.

- Zabihullah: It was not completed well.

- Zhila: Yes, it was not complete. I got married and went to Kandahar while it was war in there. After, I became a teacher. I am a literacy teacher in the 16th district. I receive seven thousand AFN per month as salary. I can’t do nothing with that salary. I swear, my brother is a witness that my salary dose not suffice... A week ago, they cut off my electricity because I couldn't pay. There are many expenses, like food and water, electricity, school… I request human rights organizations stop these bad things. Why did those who have enemies come to the area? It was just his personal issue. Yet, if you had a meeting, why didn't you close the pharmacy and all the shops?

- Adela: They should have informed police in the area.

- Zhila: ...the oppressed and the poor would not have been killed, my thirteen-year-old child, at 7th grade, was martyred. Now I am left with two daughters who are in 5th grade. What will happen to my life? I am worried about this life every day. I am thinking about how my daughters will be. I have a heart problem; the walls of my heart are enlarged. My brothers are taking care of me. I can’t treat myself with my salary, my dear brother.

- Zabihullah's wife: There are some Members of Parliament (MPs) in Shah Shaheed, they must...

- Zhila: These MPs should leave the area.

- Zabihullah: No, the MPs have their house, they should live in their houses.

- Zhila Why?

- Zabihullah: But they should hold their meetings somewhere else.

- Adela: Should be coordinated with police in the area.

- Zabihullah: They are having this meeting again...

- Adela: Even if they hold their meeting secretly, the suicide bombers will come to them if they get news.

Zhila: Well, personally, I am not happy with this government. Because I voted for Ashraf Ghani myself, I regret that my child was killed for this vile person. Let my voice reach them, no matter if they like it or not. I am not afraid, even if I would be executed.

- Zabihullah: I served in the government for almost 28 years. In the course of my service, my hand was cut off. In the service of the Holy Askari, this leg of mine was hit by a bullet. You see, my legs are supported with skewers. This is clear, and after that I worked hard. I raised myself from the second rank of Tharni to the rank of Samunvali. In the last five years, my eyes became blind, my nerves dried up, I got heart disease, I got pollen, my nervous pressure increased, and my diabetes became severe. It's been five years since I lost my eyes during this Karzai government.

Five years ago, I worked as the commander of the 101 Asmai Zone of Kabul. I lost my eyes and after that I was hospitalized. My heart was not treated, and then I went to Pakistan. I lost my eyes while I was in the police hospital and after being treated for a while, since I was not able to see, I faced serious problems in my daily life. For example, going to the toilet. I am sorry.

They forced me to retire, I was paid 40,000 Afghanis a year, while I was included in the reform process and had succeeded it. My salary was 20 thousand Afghanis per month. They give only two months of my salary for one year, which they give now. I have no breadwinner anymore; my child was the only breadwinner. I have another son who has finished 12th grade. He is jobless. I am afraid of his future. What if he became addicted to something? What if he...

This is my wife who works as a teacher in one of the schools in Kabul. My daughter is studying in Darul Uloom Bibi Ayesha Siddiqa and my second daughter is in the 10th grade of school, my third daughter is in the 6th grade of the school. I don't have any land, house or apartment in my name, or in the name of my wife or children.

When I became disabled, no one supported us. While there were billions of monies and many houses, ah, in came the Martyrs and Disabled Ministry. They distributed houses and other supports to their friends, but we were not included.

- Zhila: We didn't see anything.

- Zabihullah: They gave those houses to the thieves. There is a person who has received six flats so far. Human rights organizations should consider this thing, the human rights of those countries that support Afghan disables through the Ministry of Disables and Martyrs. They support that disabled families live peacefully like in other developed countries of the world.

- Zhila: When we go, they don’t answer us.

- Zabihullah: You may have heard about Mr. Sarwari. He received lands for 200 houses, which were divided among ten people of his own. They have committees, they take money, lands, and flats.

- Zhila: Yes, I wrote a petition on behalf of my husband. They said to bring my husband's ID card. They didn't register anything, no.

- Zhila: He looked at me and said: get out. He said: It is fake. I said: is it fake?... I went to my brother's house and told him. My brother said: Go sister, you have honor and dignity...

- Zabihullah: This is for the sake of the children...

- [Zabihullah] I went because of my martyred child. I went to Aziz Rasa, because of him and my children.

- Zhila: I still have his number, his card.

- Zabihullah: We went there to register our petition. He said: You can go for now and come after Eid al-Adha. After Eid al-Adha, we visited him, and he said: your child was under 18 years old. Yes, he was under eighteen and was a good breadwinner for us. If he had become 18 years and beyond, he would not work at the pharmacy, wash cars, or sell newspapers.

- Zhila: Yes, wash the car.

- Zabihullah: Or stand in the square, calling out for passengers to get on the car of a certain route. For example: Kote Sangi, twenty rupees only, Kote Sangiiii Kote Sangiii. These are the children who became breadwinners. The grown-ups, who made themselves millionaires in this 13 year... Mr. Karzai started from zero. Half of Afghanistan was looted by Mujahidin. Not the real Mujahidin, I do not insult the real Mujahidin. Those who joined the real Mujahid later for their personal interests and picked up arms and looted, did not act as real Mujahidin. I have never seen the true Mujahid do bad things. I have a due respect to real Mujahid, and I am proud of them for doing Jihad. Mujahidin who gathered from the city of Kabul, from alleys and markets, stole half. Talib stole other half, but Karzai started from scratch and prepared the government.

Everybody has armored cars and armored land cruisers. The ministries, the water supply system, the canalization, and the electricity has been fixed and today the National Unity Government is ruling. Now the Government of National Unity, may God destroy the intention of those who work as civil servant... in which constitution of Afghanistan is it stated, in which law of human rights, in which civil law of Afghanistan is it stated that: the age of the martyr(boy) should be eighteen; and sixteen for girls if they are killed? We demand human rights organizations to make these things clear to the leaders. Why are ministers are doing this?

If I have 10,000 AFN, I would give it to the martyrs and the disabled. I will not see the age, neither eighteen nor seventeen. Indeed if I have ten thousand rupees.

To see my real life, I will take you to my house right now. It has been cold in the winter; we have no firewood in the house. I have three children. We have no firewood or heating, what else I should tell you from my pain? What can I do with seven thousand (my wife's salary)? The government only gives me forty thousand a year. Forty thousand! While I have spent three hundred thousand in the death ceremony of our children...

-Adela: Niece...

- Zabihullah: This amount was consumed for my niece, her mother borrowed it... We couldn't do it alone and we were six families.

Zhila: Once I pleaded with Golpacha [the MP who was attacked] that I am in debt. He is a religious person. I said, "Brother! My children were killed because of you, yet you didn't come to our house to share sorrow with us... I was like your sister... It's okay, but please support me with something now; my debtor has put me under pressure." I called him a couple of times. On the third day, he calls shamelessly on the phone, "Hey crazy! Don't call again! If you call, I'll come right now and kill you. Also, if your brother says something, we will arrest your brother and put him in prison."

- Zabihullah: This is an MP, he works in the House of the People. Please let the head of the Parliament hear that a parliamentarian...

- Zhila: ... calls me ... crazy woman. It's crazy woman that you have this power and...

- Zabihullah: Curse on you. First myself, my wife, my sisters, my brother, and my brother's wife voted for you, and made you an MP because we know you and you are our neighbour. But you threaten my sister that you will assassinate her and put her brother in prison. While you are the killer of our children, you are cause for the martyrdom of our children Golpacha Majidi!

- Zhila: Golpacha is the real killer... it was his personal matter...

- Zabihullah: He had not informed the police in the area, had not informed the intelligence, under the name of bodyguard. He receives the salary and living of twenty people from the government. He did not even take his own security measures and due to that, our children are not alive today. A suicide bomber will not come for me, who am I? I am neither minster nor an MP.

- Zhila: A thief will not enter our alley if it is open from evening to morning.

- Zabihullah: I have a good property. Let him see the house, you also come to see how I live. I am living in a heritage. My sister's electricity is cut off, my other sister's electricity is also cut off, mine was also cut off, I reconnected it.

-Zhila: My children tease me that I am living in my father's house.

-Zabihullah: But this is our father’s legacy, everyone has the right. We find some money. I have nothing else. Although I had worked with the government, I was not a traitor and I am not afraid.

Dear Hamid, the representative of human rights, who you were assigned by the head of human rights of Afghanistan to talk to us, listen to us. So these were the pains of our family, I shared them to you. These were our secrets and needs, this was my personal secret and need. And it was about martyrs; this is about our personal lives as we told you. If there is any other question, I am ready.

My dear son, Shahid Ahmadullah, was martyred in a suicide attack on March 29, 2015, at six o'clock in the evening. He was working in a pharmacy near our place called Abdul Ghafur Nadim Pharmacy. I had enrolled him in Sirat school with difficulty. I brought them up with poverty and hardship and I said to myself that if I have suffered all that poverty and misery, tomorrow my son will try hard and all the hardships I had will give results. But that was not God's will.

A Shrapnel Caused His Death

This story was recorded on April 29, 2019 in the local office of the AIHRC in Herat Province. Ms Dasta-Gul describes the story of grief, love, and the years after the loss of her husband with patience and in detail.

Narrator: Dasta-Gul (victim’s wife)

Victim’s name: Qurban (30 yrs)

Date of Accident: Summer of 1984, 11:00 oclock

Place of Accident: Kareezkhoni Village, Rubat Sangi District, Herat Province

Type of accident: bomb shrapnel (bombed by Soviet aircrafts)

My name is Dasta-Gul and Qurban was my husband. It has been 35 years since my home was wrecked. He was thirty-years-old and I was twenty-years-old in 1989. It was July, yes, it was the proper time of the year for farming. The Soviets killed him; their bomb killed him. The Soviet aircraft killed him. He was killed in Kareezkhoni Village, part of Rubat Sangi District. It was eleven in the morning. We were married for seven years; he was killed in the eighth year. We had two children, one aged 2 and the other a 9-month-old breastfeeding infant. Yes, two children. We had two children and both are sons. We were married for just 7 years.

He was a farmer and used to raise livestock. He harvested wheat and oats. Agriculture was his only profession. He had gone over to harvest wheat from the fields when an aircraft dropped a bomb. He died among the wheat crops. A lot of people, around nine or ten, were killed. In that village, around a hundred or more people were killed. The tanks and aircraft killed all of them in that village. They were all working in their fields. Those villagers who were inside their houses were also bombarded and got buried under the rubble, poor souls. Our house was far [from the houses which were bombed].

A member of my family informed us that a person has been killed in the fields, and asked us to collect the corpse [and nine other martyrs] and take them to the mosque. Yes, I saw him. The shrapnel had entered the back of his head and exited from his abdomen. That one shrapnel caused his death. I did not have anything after my husband’s death. Out of destitution, I turned to carpet weaving. Until my children turned ten years old, I was busy weaving day and night. No one helped me. No one cared for us. They did not care that my orphaned children were hungry and alone with me, who owned nothing.

Yes, the fields on which my husband grew wheat belonged to us. They [Qurban’s family] gave a plot of land to my orphaned children. My children had uncles, a grandmother, and aunts. I asked them to give only two acres of the land on which my husband worked to my boys. I worked hard by myself. I wove carpets, and went from one to the other to make ends meet. I did not have any other assistance.

I sent my boys to school. After they finished school, we came to Herat City for them to go to university. Ah, after my eldest son did not learn in university, I sent him to Iran as a laborer. My eldest son is named Nur-Ul Deen, and the youngest is named Saif-Ul Deen. They went to Iran and worked hard. They also got married from their hard work. They did not have sisters who could be married off and from their marriage’s gifts, I could have taken wives for my sons and settled them down. My poor boys worked hard and built lives for themselves. I used to live with my in-laws but they did not like me. They would always argue and tell me to give up my sons and re-marry. I told them I will not marry and even if it kills me, I will not give up my children. What can a second marriage give me when I did not gain anything from my first marriage? The marriage life which I had was one where my husband never once told me what to do or not do. God took him from me, his death came soon.

During the seven years of us being married, he never once told me to do or not to do this or that. That is because I was content with him, and until today, I have stayed in his memory and for his sons. When you are content with your spouse, even after they are gone, your heart does not allow you to think of someone else or to leave their children. My brother-in-law would bring a bag of wheat and rice. My parents also helped and asked me to bring my children to live with them. My conscious could not accept this so I worked and wove rugs by myself. I never folded the carpet loom close; it was always open as I constantly worked on weaving rugs. It was like whenever I finished one rug, I would start another the very next day. What else could I have done, I was hungry and poor, I had no other choice. I had to do it in order to make ends meet and survive absolute poverty because I had no other source of income. The situation at that time was not good, but I do not know why they bombed our village. However, the [neighbouring] village was bombed heavily. They bombed that village a lot. My husband was also killed there but I do not understand exactly the reason why they bombed. It has been thirty years since and my mind has gotten weak as well as my memory and I no longer remember why they killed our village’s people.

When my home was ruined after my husband’s death, I was twenty-years-old. I was married off at the age of fourteen. I was married for 7 years when my husband died. It has been whether eighteen or twenty years, what is the sum of seven years and fourteen years? It has been twenty years, twenty. My husband was from outside my family, I was happy with him that is why I have remained unmarried until this day in his memory. I loved him, do you understand? When you love a person, even if there are hundreds of others around you, your feelings for them will not change. This is why I did not accept anything else after him. By God, he did not have anything. My carpet was the earth underneath and my roof was the sky. I just loved him and I loved my sons. He had a good personality and a muscular figure. He was very lucky meaning when he was in a group gathering, he could make everyone laugh till tears would come out of their eyes due to his good humor and manners. But what can I do now that God has taken him from me?

When my [eldest] son was in Iran, he studied till eleventh grade and after he came back to Afghanistan, he finished his last year of high school. However, I do not know what major he studied at university. I did not ask, my dear, I did not ask him. He studies half of the day and the other half he works as a watchman for a school. He sweeps classroom floors and arranges the desks and chairs. He also has the keys to the school, as if he is the watchman of the elementary school. He gets five or six thousand Afghanis per month. My second son is also married. Thankfully, he is also married. I have three grandchildren from one son, and four from the other. I live with the two of my daughters-in-law in Wahdat Village, in the town of Abulwaleed which is part of the Injeel District of Herat Province. I am satisfied with my sons, thankfully. My sons have never ill-treated me. They say ‘dear mother’ at the beginning of their sentence and one at the end of their sentence. Their wives are not from our family so naturally, they might act irritated or say something to me, but when my sons treat me well, I have nothing to do with my daughters-in-law because my sons are important to me. Yes, my sons have a lot of respect for me; they respect me a lot. When I get sick, they borrow money for my medications and doctor’s visits so that I get treated. They borrow money from others so that their mother can get better. I have such dear sons and my heart is happy from them. One of my grandchildren passed last year and that broke my heart. He was only eleven-years-old. They said he had an incurable illness. They said he had cancer and his lungs had been destroyed. We took him to Kabul and brought his body back to Herat. He was only eleven-years-old and in fourth grade.

I am happy with my sons, my dear. My sons also love me a lot. I pleaded to God that my sons do not have a father, what would become of them? They could become addicts and junkies; they could become gamblers. However, thank God, they grew up to become really modest and decent men. My children are virtuous and chaste; they do not have any addictions, thankfully. My boys do not have any faults, they are clean and virtuous. I am thankful to God that I have good sons, they are decent people. I shall share the ache of my heart with the women of Afghanistan. I shall say how much I suffered and went through to raise my boys. I pray to God that my efforts do not go in vain and make my decent sons even more decent to people. And if they are friends, make them even better friends to others. I only want to say that. Some women ask me how my sons are and I respond that thank God, my life is completely good. I am not unhappy with my sons or their wives. Thank God, they are very nice. I have a very good life. My relatives ask how I manage with my sons and I tell them that my life, in general, is good and that I am completely content with my sons. They turned out to be decent people, they are humane. They do not bother people. On their university campus, there are around two thousand girls and boys studying, but they do not bother them or the girls there. They are such strong-willed sons.

Yes, I love my sons a lot, how can I not love them? For them, I have gotten beaten, verbally abused, and even been charmed with a talisman so I could leave my boys. They cast a magic charm on me so I would leave my sons and go back to my father’s house. By God that I am telling the truth, my dear. I went to a Hajji and he told me that I have been charmed to leave my sons and re-marry. By God, they did everything they could to me so I would leave my sons but God made my love for them so strong that nothing could separate us.

My daughters-in-law are unemployed. When we were in the village, they used to weave carpet a bit but after coming to Herat City, they no longer work as there is no work here. No one buys handmade rugs anymore. My daughters-in-law are busy with house chores and with taking care of their children. Their husbands (Dastagul’s sons) make ends meet now. I tell them that I was able to bring up two orphaned boys through carpet weaving, why do you not work? They tell me that I had the willpower and courage to do that, they do not have that. Ah! [Laughing] They tell me I had a lot of courage to do that; that I had a lot of vitamins and in comparison, put their vitamins in shame. [Laughing] They do not wish to work and cannot work. Yes, I told them I got weak because of work, my eyes lost their power, and my hands and feet don’t work anymore. I have gotten weak from all that work and now, it is on my sons’ shoulders to bring food. I can no longer work. There is a dent in my hand where I held scissors while weaving carpets. My hand has gone limp now because I would constantly work on the carpet loom and my eyes have gotten weak.

My sons tell me, “Mother! Even if we take you to Mecca [for pilgrimage], we cannot repay you even for one night of you taking care of us.” This is life. I suffered a lot, got beaten up, received verbal abuse, and heard all kinds of things. I would tremble day and night like an animal getting slaughtered for fear that someone would take my sons away from me. I suffered all kinds of pain. My sons would know my value after all. Now that they have grown up, I tell them about my suffering. They tell me that they could not have done anything because they were young and did not understand. Some mothers who raised their orphaned children were kicked out of the homes by their sons. Meaning, they kicked out their poor mother. There are children like this. There are children like this in our village.

Still, I thank God that my sons are decent men. Who knows if I will live ten more years or not? Only God knows. My youngest son says, “Mother! Do not fret. Do not worry too much. Mother! Your presence is a blessing to us. You are our hope. Your shadow over us is a blessing.” But I tell them that now that have wives and their own families, forget about my shadow over them. My sons tell me, “No, your shadow and presence are a blessing to us.” My boys did not have a father so they only had their mother, they received love only from their mother. Only we know a mother’s pain. For their peace of mind, I tell them that, God willing, I shall remain like a cloud that provides shade to you. I am very much pleased with my sons. They ask me about their father like how he looked, his height, and his figure. And no ease their minds, I tell them that their father looked like their uncles. They look at their father’s photos and constantly ask about his height and face. They tell me, “Mother, if our father were alive, God knows how much better our lives would have been.” For their comfort, I tell them their father was not the only one who was martyred. There are thousands of other orphaned children who grew up in similar circumstances without their fathers. I tell them that their father’s life was that long. Yes, sometimes they ask me about their father all day, twenty-four hours. They love their father so much that when my youngest son went to Iran, he took his father’s photo to make a bigger print and frame it. They always miss their father. Still, to ease their pain, I tell them that that person does not have a father and this person lost their father in an accident so that they do not suffer too much because of their father’s absence. Their hearts find comfort in that and they share their pain with me.

I Found Him at Dusk

Narrator: Ghulam Abbas Mobarez (Victim’s brother)

Victim: Ali Madad Mobarez (18-years-old)

Place of incident: Mirzaolang, Qul Khatoon Village, Sayyad District, Sar-e Pol Province

Time of incident: During Soviet occupation 1979 to 1989

On the day of my brother’s martyrhood, I was somewhere else. Our martyred brother Ali Madad Mobarez was harvesting wheat somewhere at the time when the Soviets attacked and killed civilians. He was harvesting on the fields and at around noon, they took a break from work when the Soviet aircrafts came. There are a lot of juniper trees in Mirzaolang. The trees are really massive and he was sitting under their shade. While the aircrafts were flying over, he had come out from under the trees to look at them. It was at this moment when they were spotted and shot at. They fled to another area while injured. They took refuge there and then started towards their home when the aircrafts saw them and fired again. He was about half an hour away from our home when he was spotted. He had fallen on the ground right there.

At first, my brother was just injured and, in that state, had fled the area. He had gotten himself close to our home when he was spotted once again and they fired at him. After that, he had fallen on the ground and we knew nothing about his situation or whereabout so that we could have checked up on him. The day went by and by sunset, we were waiting for him to come back. We kept on waiting but there was no news of him. I went out to look for him and after walking for a bit, I saw him on the ground. He was right across the fields in Mirzaolang, we farm in this area. It was at dusk when I found him. I saw him on the ground but he was still alive. I grabbed him by his arm but I could not lift him up. He was not skinny like myself; he was a lot heavier and twice my size even though I was older than him. No matter how much I tried to bring him back home, I could not carry him. Finally, he told me, “Go and bring a donkey.” I came back home. My parents asked me, "What happened? Is Ali Madad not coming?” By God, I could not tell them anything. Instead, I told them, “He will come from the back [of the house].” I took a horse and left. I did not say anything at home but went to my neighbour to inform them that my brother has been injured by the aircraft and we need to bring him back home on the horse. By the time I arrived, he had already passed away and became a martyr. Now we were forced to carry his body back home on the horse. Sadly, my parents did not know anything so when I brought [my brother’s dead body] home, they were devastated. My father collapsed. My mother also collapsed. Basically, both of them lost consciousness as my brother had left home healthy and well in the morning but at night, his lifeless body came to them. We brought him back and buried him after people gathered. After that incident, we left Mirzaolang, specifically the area we lived in which was called Qul Khatoon. We left that area because my parents could no longer bear living there. After my brother’s martyrdom, we migrated to the Mirzaolang Valley itself. In short, we experienced so many changes after the incident. It has been twenty years since but I do not remember the exact date when it happened.

After my family, many of our neighbours also migrated to the valley but this time, the valley was captured by the Taliban. This time, the Taliban killed people and looted their property. Afterwards, we came to Sar-e Pol and currently, we live in Mazar. They [the Soviets] had come with helicopters and fired. There were bullet wounds in different areas of his body. A bullet had hit his hand and another his leg. The last bullet had entered from his back and existed on the other side of his abdomen. After his funeral ceremony, when we came back on the fields, there were bullets on the ground.

Areas such as Mirzaolang, Sar-e Pol, Saidabad and Charbagh, had Mujahidin fighters whom fought with the Soviets. For this reason, the Soviets would kill anyone part of the Mujahidin or the residents of those areas. Although my brother was just a farmer, they had shot him under the suspicion that he is a Mujahid fighter or might become one.

Two or three months after Ali Madad’s death, my mother fell sick but did not recover from it and passed away. Two years after that, due to my brother’s grief, I lost my father. My sister got married. I also got married. Basically, life was very difficult. My brother had good manner. He respected our parents and me. Although I was older, he was a lot bigger than me in size and always took care of the heavy labor. He used to say, “I am strong, I can do it but you are weak, so you cannot.” There were around 400-500 families living In Mirzaolang. Around us, everyone was Sunni Muslims and we had no way out. There was only one route to Sar-e Pol. When the Taliban captured Mirzaolang, the residents there made a lot of complaints to the government. In response, the government sent four tanks in support of the people. The tanks could not hold up and as a result, fled towards Sar-e Pol.

The people lost their morale and while the Taliban had captured from Sar-e Pol to the valley, only very few people were fleeing the area. There was so much bullets being fired that people no longer cared. They would say, “If we are going to die, let us die and if we are going to live, let us live, but we do not want to be captured alive by the Taliban.” At night, everyone fled. Whether it was a woman, a child, an old man; those who wanted to escape fled the area. Of the individuals whom fled around two or three in the morning, some were able to pass through and flee but some were captured by the Taliban. The Taliban killed around fifty or sixty people.

Although I was not there and have only heard from others, they say that those captured were taken back on foot around 10 minutes away from the place of their capture, and ten people were beheaded. There were old men, children aged five and six, and even women among those ten people. Women were in such a state [of terror and panic] that they were not able to take their headscarves with them. After everything calmed down in the area, people went back to recover the dead. Around fifty to sixty people were killed.

My first wife’s father, who was around 55 to 60-years-old, was beheaded during that incident. He was a farmer but he was beheaded. I do not remember exactly, but we buried his body maybe ten to fifteen days after – after the Taliban had left the area. He could not be identified by his face, we identified him through his clothes.