The Story of Nik Bakht
My name is Nik Bakht and I am almost 60 years
old. I am originally from Bamiyan but have been
If the war did not take the lives of Ramazan and Abdul Hamid, perhaps today
everything would be different. They might even be feeling the prosperity,
joy and happiness of being grandparents. Unfortunately, for Nik Bakht and
her husband to smile has become a meaningless act as they are constantly
disturbed by the tragic deaths of Ramazan and Abdul Hamid. For them, every moment of their lives has turned into a terrible nightmare and their only
solace are the photographs of Ramazan and Abdul Hamid, who continue to
live in their memories until the day their souls will go to rest.
A journey into the painful life of Nik Bakht can open our eyes to the hidden
realities of war. War is not just a passing episode in the history of a country.
When it occurs, it takes away the peace and wellbeing of the people forever.
living in Kabul for a long time. Our life was good
before the war but then I lost two of my sons. One
of them was killed in Deh Mazang and the other
one in Kote- Sangi. Ramazan was killed in KoteSangi though I do not exactly know how it happened… a bullet was stuck in his head and his
eyes bulged.
My second son was called Abdul Hamid.
He was two years younger than Ramazan. He died only a month after Ramazan’s
murder. It happened during the holy month
of Ramadan and Abdul Hamid had gone to
the bakery to buy bread. We did not know that
he had been shot. Later we learned that after he
was shot, he was taken to the hospital and that he was
still alive when they took him. When he finally died, his body was brought to the local mosque,
which is where we were informed about his death.
During the war everyone we knew left and fled the city and we were asked to take care of
people’s homes. However, the bullets were coming from all sides and we were unable to go anywhere. In those days, my husband worked as a porter and it was very hard for us to make ends
The Memory Box Initiative: Seeking to Break the
Cycle of Violence and Tragedy in Afghanistan
The Memory Box Initiative: Seeking to Break the
Cycle of Violence and Tragedy in Afghanistan
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When Only Photographs Remain
Nik Bakht is the symbol of a victimized generation
struggling to deal with the trauma of never ending
war. The dragons of war devoured her two sons
within a short period of time and by now it hardly
matters who was responsible for their murders. What is important is the
infinite injury inflicted upon her heart. Years after her sons’ departure, she
and her aging husband are living an existence between life and death, their
lives, in the aftermath of their sons’ murder, restricted only to the “ sphere
of pain”. This couple spent most of their years grieving their lost sons. Now
they are old and the chains of poverty and helplessness have invaded them
once and for all. There is no more energy left in her husband’s body to work
as a porter to make ends meet. The “storm of poverty” has destroyed their
lives. They can do nothing except to watch other people’s happiness with
broken hearts and sad eyes. Every time they look into the face of a young
man, they remember their own young sons at the time of their early death:
Ramazan was 21 years old and Abdul Hamid 19 when they were killed.
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